Sorry man, I really cannot bare to understand what your trying to do here, I'm not trying to be disrespectful but all your posts you've made now just seem like a running "joke" you constantly make post like this
post 1 &
post 2 and complain about your mental health and that zarp is causing you stress yet continue to play nearly everyday and apply for new positions when they open. What is your plan behind this? Isn't this just going to cause you more stress over time and bring you down and cause your mental health issues? I really hate to say it but it SEEMS like your seeking attention man and its quite worrying.
anyways best of luck with your application