TOPIC: Thank you all!

Hello there.

My activity on TTT is not great, and I am gonna improve that now. The reason for this, is what I am gonna tell you now.

I have been immature, had bad attitude, and I really didn't like it. The reason is because when I was younger, I was bullied, hit, kicked, and other stuff that I won't say, and this almost led me to take my own life. But one thing made me not do it, and that is a few questions: What will happen when I am gone? Will people miss me? Will people care when I am gone? and a few more. I felt like nobody cared about me, that everybody just wanted me to leave, and just go. I almost took my own life 2 times, the first time I was very young, the second time I was a little older, and that was the time I almost did it.
I am not open about this, not many people knows this, and the reason this bothers me now, that I have had the same feeling as before. Something happend a few weeks ago that reminded me on all this, that I was alone, nobody cared, but I was wrong. Many people cared for me then I thought. If you or someone you know is dealing with this, get help, speak to someone, it helps, I didn't think it would help me, but it did.
ZARP is my life, my family. Zarp have helped me threw darkest of times, and I thank everybody for this. Even those I don't like much, I still thank you. You have made me who I am, and for that I am thankful.
And also because of that feeling, it has haunted me, made me a little unstable, I have been angry, but now I finnaly feel free of that feeling, I can improve, I can be a better person, I can do what I love the most, play games and help people at the same time. My activity and attitude is gonna be better, and I am gonna be more mature,

Again, I thank everybody for shaping this community. The staff that helps people everyday, the owners and developers who uses their time and effort to help people, make people have fun, and that is what I love about this community, that people helps others when they need it. Everybody needs someone.

Thank you if you have read the whole thing, this means a lot to me, to share who I am. Feel free to ask me questions, and things that I need to work on, and thank you for reading and hopefully understanding my terrible grammar and writing.


Thank you! <3

Oh my god.

I hate bullies and this is the reason why.

Hopefully this is all behind you now

Aw, man, you didn't need to tell us all that. You can become better, everyone can. You have come far already!

You'll do well, man. Don't worry about it too much.

Love you <3

DEADMONSTOR wrote:
It is, and I thank the bullies, if it weren't because of them, I would probably never have been here, and they have shaped who I am today.

Thank you for reading my post and my story!

Raeker wrote:
Thank you so much Raeker, and telling this helps me a lot. It helps everybody even if it doesn't feel that way.

Oh my god..... I am as speechless as a pineapple. Such a powerful and motivational message in this story. I am sorry for your past, I hope the bullying stopped.

Leopatra wrote:
Yes it stopped, but nobody stopped it. I said it to the school, but they didnt give a shit about me, I was just a little confused kid that didn't want to be at school, it stopped because of the bullies was older and switched schools

Another story is that a group of kids attacked me, threw me down some hard stone stairs, and then some teachers came and looked at me with a disgusting look and walked away, that is so fucked up.

DiamondWolfi wrote:
Thank god they handled bullying very good at my school..

I know precisely how you feel, to be thrown away, shunned and treated like trash no matter what you do, and to have those who most would tell you are the people who are supposed to help you being a part of that. Keep looking to what is good, and keep sticking to what gives you hope, and you will be able to keep going.
For the sake of quotes:
"The beginning is always the hardest, so keep going until the very end"

TheXnator wrote:
Thank you for understanding me!

Would love to see some questions or something I can improve on. Or if you have a similar story you want to share, it feels better to share it!

Really sorry to hear this man
giving you a through this hard time of yours

Your very welcome. My fine sir

BUMP

Can someone move this to General Disc.??

you're welcome