TOPIC: [SSRP] Resignation

Yeah well to be honest I just don't really know how to start.
I'm resigning from SSRP, I'm done
I've been sanctioned and I just see no point on being 5 hours a week for 4 weeks long to 'get playerbase up'
I haven't logged in over a month on SSRP and I'm not objecting the Sanction, however I'll you my experience with the years.

Mentally I have been going downhill again and I have a lot of stress right now with work, I just see no point on being staff no more
I've been through a lot throughout the year with the community, and I enjoyed every fucking minute of it.
However, now I just see no point anymore on working on events and encouraging people when in my beliefs 50% of the LT is actually doing effort.
I'm not saying that I am the only one out here and I don't want to act out like one, however there have been some things happening in my point of view that there was discrimination between the ranks and the equality of effort.
For example, If you're a Server Owner doesn't give you unlimited passes to avoid Staff Duties on that other server. A lot have been seen through the fingers and I'm glad some things have been seen through the fingers, however a lot of horrible shit has also been slapped on the wrist.

I don't really feel like my work has been appericiated by the team. This is just how I felt it. I've done a lot with for example doing events and basically showing up in almost every meeting, chatting on Teamspeak and building up a bond, I've spend money on boosterpacks mostly to giveaway the items to this community, I don't regret it, however I haven't really heard a lot of thank yous etc. But usually alot of negative stuff came up which never really turned positive to me.
I personally experienced a lot of mental health issues and I should've resigned earlier which I didn't. I feel stupid, I should have resigned, I want to apologize towards the people that thought I was doing all those posts for attention, I never had those intentions.
I went on Inactivity few times and there were some jokes made within the staff team and with the playerbase which I really didn't like. "He'll return next day" etc.
There were some decisions in this Staff Team which I 100% disagreed with and eventually ended up bad, but you can't make everyone happy, Just because someone has some Staffing Experience for example doesn't mean he instantly should been given 'full' power just because of his experience or his bias friend is a staff member.
I'm not acting like I am the great, I've done stupid shit, I've learned from my mistakes, there were some words twisted.
I've made decisions in SSRP as a Staff Member where I 100% stand behind, I have always been 0 bias and always tried to punish fairly and strict.

I simply don't think adding more updates and doing more events is just suddenly going to bring back all the players, we haven't really done anything that the community wanted, we didn't listen and if we did, we were to late.
When people complained about stuff I've done my best to report those issues so the server would've been likeable ever since, but it just kept dying the server.
Every day less players on the server. Less motivation.
There is seriously no point on being on a server with one afk guy for 5 hours minimal to get one player online for 1 second who instantly leaves.
Likewise with murder just the motivation is gone.

Some people in this community made me feel like I am one sort of kid with a syndrom, I feel like I've been treated like one, Just because I am different than others doesnt mean you're instantly mentally disabled.
They were using it in my opinion in an insulty way. Just because someone is autistic doesn't mean you have to act all weird around me. I noticed it all. In gererally speaking there were some of the luckily now banned people in those groups.



My Personal life is important right now and I don't want to waste time anymore on Zarp effortlessly, I want to feel good again.
It was a hell of a journey, but It is over for now, possibly i will return in the future

Thank Yous

CEO really helped me through alot actually, I really appericiate his work and effort. He was the reason why I kept being part of this Team, he helped me thorughout all the bullshit people giving me mental issues and other reasons.
He is friendly towards everyone and made sure that I was doing alright.


Community Team
I want to say a big Thank you to Chute, EMP, Xnator, Richard and Martin for all the effort and dedication on SSRP. Within the meantime we had some great moments with Jackbox etc. Thanks for the hard work and the help


Nafe
We barely talked in the time you were staff but apart from that, You're a great guy, thanks for the work man

Pie
Fuck you british man!!!!!!

Joshua
Thanks with the events giving me the trust in ranks and all the help.


TheAliceGaming
a Thanks for being my friend

Zoë
Even though you weren't part of the Staff Team I want to thank you for all the support you are giving me til today.


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Cya round dude, happy I could help where I could, hope everything goes well for ya

zarp

Sad to see you go, I know you cared a lot for the server. Mental health wise as hard as it is chin up your glow up and change of luck is on its way even if you can't see it

Big up my can

Thank you for your time! It was greatly appreciated and from what I have heard from talking to you, and from what I noticed, you were trying to put a lot of effort into the revival of SSRP with stuff like events. Kinda unfortunate that it didn't work out. Best of luck with work and your mental health!

Not quite sure what Maddies brother can do for the server

Bye, thought you were a bit cringe ngl. But I do hope you sort out your mental health stuff, exercise and diet can make a surprising difference.

I essentially said everything i needed to say in game, i've had a lot of fun with you over the past year or so and I hope your mental health improves while you are away. Remember you are never alone with your MH and can always message me

You're welcome

Even if you heard thank yous it will never be enough for what you did to the server, you were one of the few persons (if not the only one) that brought back that many players with your events, its sad to see you go i hope you mental health gets better.

And i cant thank you enough for everything you did to me, helped me out, and being extremely friendly. Dont ever think that i will forget things you helped me out with
I wish you a healthy and a successful life. And dont think about it too much, you were one of the best staff around, and people hating you doesnt mean your bad its just zarp toxicity.
If you ever need someone to talk to ill glad to be there for you. Thanks again for your work

bro there gonna be no lead team left by next update hahahaha

Ah, shit man.
Thanks for your hard work on the ssrp server.
Even though you call me a retard every time you talk to me, you were a fun guy to talk to.
I hope your mental health gets better and good luck with what comes next.

Thank you for all the hard work, time, and effort you've invested into SSRP throughout the last year. It was a pleasure working alongside you. Best of luck with your ensuing adventures in life and I hope to occasionally see you around!

Farewell!

DoSpiiR wrote:
Thank you for supporting me

Sam. wrote: Because you are retarded! But we'll see thanks dude for being murder ex staff!

Mr. Richard wrote:
Thank you for covincing me back in March to go for Moderator lol