I am resigning from Surf, which means I also resign from Global Moderator on the forums, so basically I resign from everything. I don't know what to say really. I don't want a thank you list, so I will just thank everybody

. But I do hugely apologize to everyone, I keep saying that I will be more active just wait and see! But that just wasn't the case. It was not like I was lying on purpose, I did believe that I would be more active once 2019 came around, but I just can't. I have been staffing now for almost 2 whole years, only about 2/3 days without a rank, and I have just been less and less active. My motivation is not like it used to be on Murder and especially TTT back in the day. I thought I could find what I had in TTT and Murder in Surf, but I just couldn't. I was inactive for so long on Surf, and I am sorry for that, I should've been demoted for it, and I even tried saying "it wasn't so long" and other things, but I didn't realize that I was inactive for a long time. And now for the forums, I have always liked staffing, and I come on very often on the forums, but my problem is that I have no reason to post anymore. I am not the shitposter I once was, but I do still do staffing stuff. I am just rambling on and on about why I am not a good staff member, and why I am resigning, but another huge thing is that I want to change in 2019, I have set myself a lot of goals. One of my goals was to become active on ZARP again, but I just can't, and I have too many goals, so I have to sort myself out first, and maybe I can come back to ZARP in around a year or so.
Short version: I am resigning from everything. I am unhappy with my work, and I am not as good as I used to be. I am inactive and have made promises that I couldn't keep. I am really sorry about everything, and I thank everyone. I do not deserve to be staff on any server as I just can't bring myself to do what I am meant to do, in a proper way. ZARP has changed me, in positive and negative ways, and I have met many great people. I have had a great 2 years on here. Thank you all!