TOPIC: Resignation

Not entirely sure what to put here as I never intended to make a post regarding my resignation, so I'll try my best. I've had an absolute blast staffing within Zarp, but I feel I have hit a point where I'm uncertain of how much I am able to offer the team in regards to time and effort. I have been noticeably absent on TeamSpeak and within the meetings and to a lesser extent the SSRP servers. This is due to a variety of reasons, but none of them excuse the fact I have slacked off and inadvertently put an undue burden on the rest of my fellow team. I strive to be the best I can in all that I commit myself to and right now I am ashamed I've hit a point where I feel like I'm a non factor within the team and server's maintenance.

I initially had no intention of returning to Gmod after my time in FP came to an end, but found myself with too much free time this last Summer. After spending two weeks as a user on SSRP I felt that if I was going to be on as often as I was, the least I could do in return would be to offer my services to the staff team. I thoroughly enjoyed every rank I achieved and am honored to have been trusted and liked well enough to have been granted the role of Head Admin. I would love to stay a HA and help when convenient to me, but that is not what the rank is for. Those that have got to know me understand how I initially felt about retaining a LT role while barely scraping by with activity and I'm no different now. I cannot in good faith justify holding a position that I only use to its full potential when it is convenient to me, especially seeing as how that is becoming less and less frequent.

I would like to believe my time spent within the LT brought forth more positives than it did negatives. I hope those that interacted me were left with a good impression and an even better time, but I understand I was not always a great representation of a staff member. I have made many friends within my time spent as staff and I would like to thank you all for allowing me the opportunity to meet and get to know you.

I'm starting my new job in less than 12 hours and I've had an extremely rough last few weeks. Had I not been previously burdened with issues that were detrimental to my time prior to receiving my initial warning, I'm not sure if I find myself making this post. I know I am currently not assisting my team and I have become a problem by making them waste time voting on me. Rather than having those people defend me when I'm ultimately unsure of how my next few weeks are going to shape out and potentially waste their time, I think I should go out on my own terms.

I know Zarp loves their special mentions, I'm no different. Sometimes it feels good to get that special nod, no shame in that. I'll do my best to keep this list short and sweet. To those that may feel slighted or missing, it is nothing personal. I have met many within Zarp I would love to shout out, but I'm incredibly tired and this is much harder than I initially envisioned it being.

Tyler: Of all the people I've met within Zarp you're one of my absolute favorites. Really isn't much I can say here that hasn't been said when we've talked. Nothing but respect for you. Still a B.A.N. though, even if you don't think so.

Para: You were the biggest push that got me to staff within Zarp. That first night we talked blew me away and I wanted nothing more than to work with you. Just like Tyler, I have nothing but respect for you and wish you the absolute best in all that you do. Zarp is lucky to have you two as CMs.

Raeker: Absolute lad. Hopefully I'll see you with the Owner rank soon enough. Never had an issue with you and have had many great talks that have really helped me look with a different view. We'll get back to that Civ game soon enough, I promise.

Cout: Fuck you and your goats.

Fred: Sora and I raised you, we're proud of you, you little bitch.

Blocked: Initially was unsure of what I thought of you when we met, but after chatting a few times ever since the incidents on TeamSpeak, I had nothing but respect for you. Extremely funny and an amazing person. Real happy I got to meet and know you these last few months.

Sally: My mentor all the way back from FP and through Zarp. Thank you for everything.

EMP: How could I forget the Vort loving fuck? Started staffing under you in FP JB. Seriously cannot be stated how much you helped me and assisted in developing my staffing ability. You suck dick at League though. Thank you for the opportunity way back when, bud. Didn't expect it to go so far.

Short and sweet, but underwhelming as it pales in comparison to the impact many of you have had on me. Maybe I'll edit it to include others, but this is fine for now.

(FAdmin) Trinidad James (STEAM_0:0:38574150) set the access level of Trinidad James to user

NONONONONONONONININININININIINIIIII FOR FUCKS SAKE YOU ARENT FUCKING LEAVING PLEASE DONT LEAVE YOU WERE MY FAVOURITE STAFF MEMBER YOU HELPED ME WHEN I WAS SAD .

I will hunt you down and force you to revoke

Do you remember that time you got lead team and you got drunk as fuck and you started shouting at everyone and everything also when you were first mod and we were all basing and everyone shot everyone and you were the only one with a defib

I will miss you dude

NOOOO
YOU WERE THE BEST HA EVER ;-;

I'm gonna honestly miss you man, great guy and a legend <3

Good luck with what you do next. You were the best head admin on the server, you were a funny guy, fun, nice most of the time. I still remember the sit with you when you were a User and I was an admin, I told you some stuff about being an admin. Goodbye and I hope you will remember me!

You were such a great staff member. I even remember when you trained me for DarkRP Moderator those months ago and you were so friendly that I could easily see why you got HA. It is so sad to see what is in my opinion one of the most friendly staff members leave the team.

Good luck with whatever you are doing though!

I'm gonna miss harpooning you Chummy <3
rip best ssrp ha ever

Miss ya trini

There shall still be more drunken discord nights! Lava you

you fucking cumrag wheres my thankyou?
Sad to see you go :/ by far the best HA.

Have fun at the films!

MageJamy wrote:
I remember having you pulled into a spacer while I was on my phone and shouting, but have no idea why. Something about a kill you weren't even involved in? I was the resident fucking medic that night.

Rip good staff member u were one of the best chummy take care now and have fun

ChummyXRay wrote: I ripped xnators port emp as he killed wizard and he thought it was rdm

cummysexray4legendary

hope you can come back as staff someday, like the only lt member that isnt corrupt

my goats are the best in the country ok

It's been a pleasure having worked with you the past few months man. You've been a great member of the staff team and an even greater friend. Will miss talking to you so pop up on the TS when you got the time yeah? Best of luck with your new job man; I'm sure you'll do great.

Give my man Chummy freakin' legendary member.

Dang, Good luck with your new job.

Later Chummy mate, shame we didn't get to work together as lead team members together but I wish the best of luck with your new job. Really appreciate everything you've done and the help and fun you had given me throughout the past few months after our bad start if you remember that, haha.

I knew this was going to unfortunately happen soon.
Sad to see you go, but I understand.
I will miss you and good luck with your new job and whatever else you do in the future!
I'm never going to forget the memories we had.

Im sad to see you go, you were the best and funniest HA i have ever met. Hope you come back on day