TheXnator wrote:
As much as you seem to be trying to be friendly over the past few days, given recent events, I'm afraid I really can't see you becoming staff on a server again soon.
You've always been a great staff member in the past until the "inevitable", but given the recent racism/spam in the Discord leading to your ban and the recent attitude, I'd much rather see you playing on the server and really showing that you do want to stay around and not let yourself go back to how you have been before and, on a related note, it would probably be best for you to be going for Moderator first.
If you can really show improvement, however, then of course there won't be any reason to deny you, but for at least the next few weeks, I really don't see it as being a great idea.
Why would I go back to how I was before though? It was clearly a relatively isolated thing and I've already expressed to many people that I was acting like an absolute fucking melon because I was experiencing a combination of boredom and anger at various things, and I now don't experience either. There's no incentive for me to revert to such an immature mindset; I don't actually get any level of benefit from it simply because I have better things to entertain me + I don't actually find it entertaining after looking back on it.
It was an isolated incident after over a year of not having such an incident, simply because I didn't remember how much of an ass I actually ended up making out of myself + how uninteresting and unfunny it actually is, after not acting in such a way for so long.
im not the type of guy to put a pretty large amount of effort into something for malicious intent simply because i dont have the time or the effort or the attention span, i genuinely enjoy ttt and want to help out
i do appreciate the feedback tho, might end up applying for mod, im cool either way
sorry if the english in this is broken at all, I haven't slept yet and my brain is fried