TOPIC: Apology for recent actions

Yo guys, just want a second of your time to tell everyone I'm sorry for what has been happening recently in game and on the forums. I made some stupid mistakes in game and it costed people items, I didn't care about my actions and I didn't really care much about it. Now I've been banned permanently until I go 30 days without a single punishment on servers I don't even enjoy playing. The reason I like SSRP is because different things happen, the other servers get boring within 20 mins of playing.

Knew that one day I'd get perm'd and this was it. I as well as most of you probably can guess that there is no fucking way that I will be able to go 30 days without being warned, but I will give it a shot. Just wanted to apologise again for lying to people in-game and causing so much drama and ruining people's RP. For the people who want to harp on me for "oh you always say sorry but you never mean it" (Jugger) I just want you all to know that in all fucking seriousness I mean this. Why in the fuck would I even bother trying to get unbanned, so I can prove to people that I can change, but with me like others, change takes time.

I used to go getting 10 warns a week and I eventually narrowed it down to 4 at the time of my ban. I hadn't had a ban on record for almost 2 months prior to this one, and I feel like that at least deserves some recignition. People saying I never change, you are wrong, cutting my warnings in half and making a stupid mistake was all I did, and I know some of you have valid reason to say so. Just saying that the 2 month period where I didn't get banned shows that I CAN improve, and I have improved, people aren't noticing it though.

One time last month I was actually about to go a full 14 days without being warned, then I got warned on day 13, about 4 hours before I would have done it. Those types of losses really impact me a lot and lower my sense of positivity, you can check the rapsheet and see for yourself that actually did happen, and on that day I got 3 warnings because I pretty much gave up after that. I am hanging on a string here in terms of just throwing in the towel now and not wasting my time even attempting to go for the 30 days.

Hope you all understand where I'm coming from and understand that after all this time I really do mean it.

Well, leaving didn't last long, as usual.

Only reason I say that is cause you constantly get banned just show me you can last the 30 days and ill stop hating

"Sam wrote:


Had to lol

Oh Wow you are back. That didn't last one.

Grand Wizowd wrote: The End post wasnt for forums, it was for SSRP.
Perma ban on SSRP.
the end of SSRP

wait ur not banned :8

I just can't take this 'apology' serious, you've been a dick to many people recently and this is a consistent reoccurring issue. I think you really need a good long break and work on how you act towards other on the internet then work your way into getting unbanned from SSRP so as of for now in my perspective, I can't accept this apology.

I, for one, do accept this apology. Why? Because I heard from people who I trust that you have improved. And although I do understand why a lot of people are sick and tired at this point, I will take any improvement positively.

Good luck with the deal you managed to make with Chummy and Para man. I hope it goes well for you.

Time proves all.

Morgan wrote: Well, the difference between this apology and the others is that this time there actually has been an improvement.

Sam the Sausage wrote: And then you blew it on S2.

I'll give you this, you've improved from the last time I banned you for a month. While you didn't go to the optimal 0 punishments per week, it was an improvement. I feel you'll get better at following the rules the more mature you become as a person, so who know's, come back down the line when you feel you're ready and I hope we'll see another improvement.

Thanks for the apology.

Blocked wrote: I really don't agree with you that raiding from under the map undoes 2 months of improvement. The only reason I did it was because of the trash talk and drama in chat, I just wanted it to fucking end. You really think that if and when I do get unbanned I'll go right back to s2 and m202 under the map again? Really?

Sir Pineapple wrote: Really have no idea who you are, or why you jump on all the threads I post, like all of them, not even related to recent incidents.

The cycle of ZARP:

1. user does something considered bad
2. user grovels and begs change and hyperboles the shit out of everything
3. smart ass kids are like "oh well huh you dont mean it" while stroking their proverbial goatees and feeling smug about themselves
4. user "changes"
5. see step 1

Clarky wrote: I'm only a "dick" to people when they are a dick to me. I try to be friendly to people, but when they push me I can't help it. You think that you constantly shit talking my friends and I is not being a dick? Think again buddy, you do it all the time. Not just you, but people who also used to be my friends as well.

PicnicBlanket wrote: Exro, the change isn't fake buddy, it has happened. 10 recents to 4 recents is a fucking change. You really are the smartass here, because this is what you post all the time, you think that your opinions are always right because you're a "legendary old player" I really don't care how long you've been here or what """"""legacy""""""" you've left on anyone, make an insightful comment, not one of your pull out of the zarp response text document generic ass responses.

Okey dokey, now im mad because you insulted my document.

You act like getting 4 recent punishments is somehow an accomplishment. You know what it shows? You still break rules. You're permanently banned AGAIN and I don't see the changes you claim having a long term positive impact.

You're not a nice person, you cannot change to be a nice person, case closed.

PicnicBlanket wrote: Firstly, I've never been perma banned. Secondly, you used to break 4x that, third, The changes are an accomplishment, for me, it feels good to know that I have lowered it down in terms of rulebreaks. How many times were you perma banned? Wasn't it like 4 or something? And what about CM bans? You really have no room to talk here buddy.