TOPIC: Why I have not been myself

Ok so you may have noticed recently that I have not been myself and now you will find out why.

Sunday morning I got a message from one of my friends saying that my best friend irl had hung them selves because of depression which made me really upset and I still am I will miss them loads and they will live forever in my heart so I apologize if I have gotten suddenly angry or just different recently so one person I owe an apology is Jordan Johnston so Jordan I wanted to thank you for playing on zarp and I am sorry for having a bitch at you in game earlier tonight it isn't like me I feel like shit anyway and it makes me feel worse knowing that I was bitching at you for "giving me a hard time" so i hope you accept my apology and I can give you a mil if you want and keep up the good work buddy but maybe Jordan you are right in that I am not ready to become a moderator or a zarp staff member yet and that is why I would like someone to remove my moderator application please and I will make a new one if I think I am ready by saturday.

I once again am sorry to all who I have bitched at or just been annoying to and this is not a post to make you feel sorry for me thank you all for reading.

Sad to hear about your friend. Take care <3

Take care man. Stay Strong.

Thank you both

Bro...... I get that everyday people be mad at me for some reason, it's life man I get on with it and don't let it bother me, don't you dare revoke your application just because we had a argument. I get why you're not at yourself man and I get it I've been through something like that before with my brother, it's life man I'm always here to support anyone if they need advice. We're still cool man, don't let it bother you buddy. I'm not that type of guy who holds grudges, what happened has happened and it's in the past. Stop letting it bother you and keep your attention on in real life problems lad, I'm still here for you lad.

Damn man, don't cancel your app, you're a great guy and you can go places!

My condolences for your friend, sad to see him go like that. It's understandable that such a distressing and sad moment can impact you like this, I wish you the best of luck with your app. You shouldn't cancel it because hopefully you can be excused!