Today I had a real debate with myself, and possibly beating myself up about it seeing my activity is not the best and the Lead Team still allowing me to be part of the staff team with it, people who have a little bit more activity than me getting demoted or warned to improve and me nothing; which makes me feel bad and down. I am really disgusted in myself to allow my activity to drop so low, but life and school has caught up to me. Just today I had a big wake up call from my School; this was parents evening normally its the same old but this time different my teachers believed I can achieve much higher than I am actually working at - which I too agreed on; but the only way for me to get these grades are to revise and do a lot of after school work to finish off my coursework.
I have around 4 and a Half Months left before they start, this is the same with many other staff members around the world. So I decided to discuss with an SA (Wheatly) who I tend to turn to a lot, this because we are best of buds and kinda understand each others problems more... I came to the conclusion that Zarp is like my second home, I love and enjoy everyday coming on and helping players it just lightens up my mood and the servers also, and I am kinda struggling to resign seeing I have a tendency to never return which I'd hate to do. I am asking for a long period inactivity which may seem very extreme, but may be only temporary - seeing I am able to come on a couple hours maybe once a week I am not 100% but I will update on this. This is not just only an inactivity thread but to notify Lead Team that I may be active now and then; which is most likely when I don't have much to do. (I feel so rude asking for a long period activity)
Thank you for Reading my somewhat sob story. I hope everyone also going for their exams - Good Luck. We are all going to need it.