Through the night, I have thought and thought and thought how my future in ZARP will be, and how I can apologize right here, right now
I think I have partly abused my Moderator powers as their was a Accepted Report against me,(With proof), and I accept what ever is coming to me within the next Meeting.
My attitude has not been the best yesterday and maybe the day before.
It is partly others too (I am NOT here to cause a argument, just to state my side of the whole thing!). In OOC I screenshotted too much of disrespect, major disrespect, from Jordan, Kingpin, and maybe another as I haven't looked through it all.. but my attitude may flick off in moments, but it is people who start it sometimes, my attitude goes downhill because of that. If I am getting constantly disrespected, it is so hard to keep my attitude the same because I want to answer back because no one is helping me, just against me, so the only conclusion to my thoughts at the time was to answer back and give them all of the crap they have given me. Although their is a lot of proof of me random teleporting in my demotion request report, I tped to Morgan to get help from him, but then he went undercover so I had a joke and a laugh about it to at least calm myself but it just got worse. My attitude goes bad because of stress that others give me, if I am stressed, my attitude just goes so bad even I think it is really bad, and that's from me. As I said I am not here to cause a lot of racket, hate, and wars again, just a sorry post of my disrespect and my attitude.
I am really sorry for my horrible attitude as my maybe time as Moderator as I may be demoted for my actions.. I wont get my dream of Administrator, but I am sorry for this, I really am, I am not coming here just for my own sake and my own will, I have come out to apologize because I actually mean it. I know I was being spectated by 2-3 people at that time, but this isn't the only time my attitude has gone downhill that no one has seen, its happened before here so as I said, I am sorry. I could have added fuel to the fire, but that's my retaliation that comes with my attitude, I would just like to say sorry once more, I will try my absolute best to let this not happen again. Sorry