TOPIC: Nemesis' Face Reveal. Q&A?

I was sexually abused by my cousin for 13 years, this started when I was 6 years old. My cousin is a year older than me and it started as a game of "house", I, at that age, was unaware of what was happening and thought it to be just a game. That is how it started. It afterwards developed as we got older.

After years of being too scared to tell anyone, in fear of what would happen to me and in fear of what way people would look at me, then I finally said something about it March this year. Thus ending a 13 year long chapter of my life. I was incredibly afraid that as a man, then being abused by another man would strip me of everything that made me, me, if I ever told anyone. I was afraid of being an outcast and a pathetic excuse for a man.

The consequences for me has been that I lack trust for everyone, family and friends alike. If I keep secrets I keep them only to myself and if my secret gets out I tell it to everyone so there is no confusion. I have had a hard time feeling comfortable in my body, as I said in the previous paragraph then I felt like a pathetic excuse for a man so my gender identity has been incredibly messed up. I have had minor sign of schizophrenia due to this confusion of gender identity.
Because I never told anyone about it, then it build as rage inside me and I've had short temper for as long as I can remember, something that I've gotten better at controlling but it still shows. I've been very depressed, multiple times on the verge of committing suicide, twice I've been to a psych ward to get checked up on.
My depression caused mental stress, that led me to being prone to migraine attacks with similarities to epilepsy, these attacks being the reason why I resigned as moderator a year ago, since at that point then sitting in front of a computer each day didn't help.