TOPIC: Why I'm an asshole

Alright here's to help you understand while I am never serious and seem like a cunt

It all started very early in life with a fairly absent family. I was mainly looked after by my grandparents and rarely saw my father. This lead me to be closer to my pop then my father.

Fast forward to 5 years ago, my pop passes away. This shattered my family. Me, my mother, my brother, and my grandmother broke.

I had severe depression and tried to end my life on numerous occasions.

My brother took to some time in the rave scene, coping with substances.

For the next 5 years I would then have to deal with the slow and steady collapse of a happy family to one of conflict.
Where screaming was so common place I learnt at what volume I need to turn my music to become blissful. The conflict at home was so incredibly horrific, where I had to comfort my own crying mother, while my brother and father screamed at each other.

I had major issues coping with this, and I still suffer from many mental issues stemming from this environment. Until recently I struggled to cope, the secret to coping I found through a friend who was much worse off then me. Loosing his mother at a young age and having to live with his grandma whom he loathed.

I wondered how he could live such a happy life with all this going on. The truth was what I am about to tell you. Don't take life seriously.
People live people die. You live you die. Who the fuck cares, just have fun while it lasts. Make a joke out of everything and go out laughing.

This is why I seem like a cunt, it's my only escape from this crippling reality that is life.
You may call me childish, but it's because I can't cope with reality.
This is also the most open I've ever been. None of my family, friends or even shrinks no this.

In my eyes you seem like a lovely chap

To be honest its the same with me but I try and cope with it.
Don't express it on other people.
But you seem nice ingame so .

Don't worry I still love you mate, nice selfies on whatsapp you look hot af.

Kristofferson wrote:

You were a really good friend to me about a week before you applied. I haven't spoken to you since but I think you're alright

A lot of people in this community can't take a joke, and a lot of the time what you say is not serious and you're joking around.

The people who see you negatively are the ones who can't learn to lay back once in a while, and think that this community is about being uptight, mature and completely respectful to everyone - when in fact it's a bloody game lol, everyone's here to have fun.

I like you Soxey, lots of people do, some people just require an education on how to have a good time.

the community's homophobia forced him to make this post so he wouldn't get banned

Soexy is just a babe, Who doesn't love him?

I hope you will find peace some day and i hope you will find a way to express your feelings better then rely on negativity
There is not alot i can do but all i can do is hope for the best that you climb ontop of all you had to go trough and be a surviver

Don't worry babes I will always have your back