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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145336

So I'm fucked up.
I have episodes where the world changes around me. I'll read a menu with only 2 items then re-read it and there's 3. That sort of thing can really fuck you up, especially when you make specific note that there's only 2.

This sort of thing is happening a lot, and it freaked me the fuck out. What's worse is the fact that I also have episodes where I feel as if someone is working against me, this can lead to me becoming scared of my shrink (leading me to lie to escape him).

Combine this with borderline OCD, anxiety, sociopathy,and ADHD, and I'm a stone throw away from a mental institution.

I'll say it, I'm a ticking time bomb. I think you should all be aware of this, be wary and prepared. I also don't like keeping secrets and this lifts a load off my chest.

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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145337

k im prepared	Nexize Offline Legendary Member I call myself Nexize but you can call me tonight Posts: 5027 Thanks received: 1215 Karma: 121
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145340

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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145341

I have episodes where the world changes around me. I'll read a menu with only 2 items then re-read it and there's 3. That sort of thing can really fuck you up, especially when you make specific note that there's only 2.

Normal.

What's worse is the fact that I also have episodes where I feel as if someone is working against me, this can lead to me becoming scared of my shrink (leading me to lie to escape him).

Lying leads to dangerous paths, only way to destroy your enemies is easy; operate smart plans.

Don't end up a bomb fanatic girl.

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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145354

Dont lie to that guy he is trying to help once i was being bullied and after about a year anxiety and stress etc took over and stabbed the bully with a pen dont let you mental health make you be violent like that co operate with the guy	Ryryster Offline Expert Boarder Yer Da sells Avon Posts: 1551 Thanks received: 190 Karma: -16
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145355

ryryster wrote: Dont lie to that guy he is trying to help once i was being bullied and after about a year anxiety and stress etc took over and stabbed the bully with a pen dont let you mental health make you be violent like that co operate with the guy Hahaha!	Studio Banter Offline Marvelous Boarder ❤️ Posts: 14009 Thanks received: 5849 Karma: -60
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145359

Yes walrus you may laugh but the head teacher etc didnt the guy had to go to hospital but no body really likes him so im apparently a legend for doing it	Ryryster Offline Expert Boarder Yer Da sells Avon Posts: 1551 Thanks received: 190 Karma: -16
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145360

ryryster wrote: Yes walrus you may laugh but the head teacher etc didnt the guy had to go to hospital but no body really likes him so im apparently a legend for doing it I wouldn't recall acquiring a legend status for stabbing someone with a pen.	Studio Banter Offline Marvelous Boarder ❤️ Posts: 14009 Thanks received: 5849 Karma: -60
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145375

ryryster wrote: Dont lie to that guy he is trying to help once i was being bullied and after about a year anxiety and stress etc took over and stabbed the bully with a pen dont let you mental health make you be violent like that co operate with the guy I would have headbutted him im ard m9	Tadgee Offline Banned Posts: 2326 Thanks received: 480 Karma: 3
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145378

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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145391

Seems like you are going through a lot right now! Remember, if there's a problem we can always help you. And also remember that good times will come! Like i said, if you want to talk then talk to me on Steam. I am on almost the whole day. Hope you will feel better soon!	TheAp4ch3 Offline Diamond Boarder Making ZARP great since 2013 Posts: 2806 Thanks received: 805 Karma: 24
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145421

inb4 you perma-ban me to keep me away from you ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)	Tettra Offline Legendary Member The original Good Boy™️ Posts: 3860 Thanks received: 930 Karma: 16
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145451

Kristofferson wrote: I'll say it, I'm a ticking time bomb. I think you should all be aware of this, be wary and prepared. I also don't like keeping secrets and this lifts a load off my chest. You can tell us everything mate, if it makes you feel better <3 Goodluck with all that !	Doode Offline Senior Boarder Posts: 728 Thanks received: 76 Karma: 13
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145452

Weirdly enough, last week while i was still sick and recovering a couple of days after the hospital i woke up at 10 pm actually thinking that my bed is crossed into teams and they're going against me on a very long road that takes hours to go through.
I was literally screaming for help and feeling scared as fuck on the inside, but then i "woke up" (realized what was happening and was able to get back to my own self) and still had some flash backs that didn't make me feel way for a day or two after that, but ya.

This thread is probably a troll, cause i can't really take you seriously, but what i just said is, and it was quite an experience for me.

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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145590

Tadgee wrote: ryryster wrote: Dont lie to that guy he is trying to help once i was being bullied and after about a year anxiety and stress etc took over and stabbed the bully with a pen dont let you mental health make you be violent like that co operate with the guy I would have headbutted him im ard m9	LineLiar Offline Senior Boarder Posts: 759 Thanks received: 163 Karma: 4
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I'm freaked out 9 years 7 months ago #145597

You gotta stop taking that LSD man, it's bad for your health! For cereal though, hope you'll be alright. I have real understanding of what's happening with you, but I wish you all the best.	Visionz Offline Junior Boarder #pointwhore Posts: 259 Thanks received: 64 Karma: 2
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