TOPIC: update on myself

sorry that of all places I choose to vent is here, but lately I have felt just so alone and my usual venting options aren't giving my the same feeling. lately i have felt my mental health deteriorating and its becoming so hard to get through the day, live, and it gets so tiring and draining. i don't feel like i have an incentive or motive to do anything or do stuff to set myself up for success anymore. this feeling i have i would never wish upon anyone. i feel so shattered. nothing feels the same anymore. I cant think. see, hear, or feel without thinking where I was a year ago and how much happier i was and i wish i could just go back in time and relive those days as i cant remember the last time i was happy. i think i need to go on antidepressants but god how fucking pitiful it would be if i had to fucking pay in order to keep my happiness for more than 30 fucking minutes. i don't even know what to do anymore getting through the day is the hardest part and there is no shortcut. this probably seems like a fuck ton blabber and mixed shit but i feel this fucking way and it seem so insane. idk what to do with myself anymore, i'm an absolute mess. i just want to be there for everyone and be in everyone's lives and leaving their lives is so fucking hard and being forced to and told to by another person to take myself out of a group of peoples lives makes me so fucking upset and makes me feel so evil and bad. i love too much and are too nice. why does being too fucking nice backfire???? idk

Hey! I know we don't know each other but you can always message me on discord (Pengu_#6969) if you ever need to chat with someone!

People are assholes. Don't feel like you need to change yourself for other people. I don't know you but don't feel like you have no one to talk to. Message me on discord Pie#5468 and we can talk about stuff. Whenever you need to vent or whatever you can message me. I hope everything egts better for you

Listen spicy we were never particularly close but I remember you as one of the most cheerful people in the community, no matter what you'd always be happy and full of energy ready to inspire us to do the same. It truly saddens me that you of all people feel this way. I can see a lot of myself in you, being too nice and all, but perhaps being considerably younger, still in school I haven't really had such a big problem. Sure there are days that are worse than others, my friends say those worse days are days that I am in depression because I fulfil some criteria or something, I don't agree with that I always saw them as just some bad days. Coming back to the topic of being too nice what I've noticed is you can never take care of your self enough, you can't make everyone like you and neither should you try to because after all it's not like you yourself like everyone you meet. Some people are inherently cunts that won't appreciate you and will only recognise your worth after it's too late. Those people don't deserve to make you sad. I'll always be there if you want to talk to someone but so are a lot of people that you don't realise. I'm sure raeker would also be delighted to help. I wish you the best.

Just know theres always a light at the end of the tunnel, all you gotta do for now is keep your chin up and try your best to get through with what's going on. Find and look for something you enjoy/want to work towards.

Proud of you for opening up man, seriously. That takes some balls. I love you man, I'd much rather tell you what I want to privately so hit me up when you're feeling up for it

There is a quote which goes along the lines of: “I’ve hit rock bottom, I cannot go any deeper.” Consider this with you; consider yourself at the bottom of happiness, and that the place to go next to us back up. Once you’ve hit rock bottom there’s no going further down, so consider yourself the saddest that you can go. And then think about that’s it’s a good thing that you can’t get any sadder because you’ve hit rock bottom; so maybe that joy of knowing that you can’t get sadder, perhaps; makes you happy. So you travel further up. Then try and imagine that last year’s memories will come to you tomorrow. Also remember that there ARE people who love you, and that they will only think the best of you. So put yourself in their shoes, and dig into your own heart just to find the joy came bursting right out.

Here are some jokes:

The invention of the shovel was groundbreaking.
2 cheese trucks crashed into each other. De bris was everywhere.
What did the sandwich say to the doorman? Lettuce in.
Have you heard about the gossip of butter? Actually no I shouldn’t spread it.
What kind of underwear do long distance runners wear? Marathongs.
How rich are garbage men? Filthy.
Have you heard of the new broom? It’s sweeping the nation!

Just some gay jokes I gues.....
But seriously I hope you get better

biosenic wrote: thank you i needed that

Spicy wrote:

You can add me on discord too if you want too, we don't know each other that well and idk if we have had a bad past or anything but i always want to try to help people. Can't say I've been in your situation since i don't know what happened but i recognize my past self in what you're saying. Also been on a lot of different anti-depressants. It gets better i promise no matter how dark and lonely it feels. I also agree with what biosenic says, even though it sounds cliché but it's true!

Here's my discord if you want to talk: Top Shagger Eleven#8865

Everyone goes through low points in life, while I do not recommend taking pills(anti-depressants) as they can become addictive and take over your life, if you can control yourself and a make the most of those happy opportunities to provide yourself motivation once the effects wear off.

While people here don't often make good use of reaching out(to me in particular), I do believe it does help to have someone or at least a few people who you can confide in once you are going through these low points.

I know we all are guilty of it and we all say “message me when you feel low” but we also all understand how hard it must be for you to actually reach out. However you done the correct thing by making this forum post. Just remember it’s okay to not be okay mate and the dark clouds are lifting.

Have you ever tried to set yourself small goals to achieve? Weather it be to finish your homework; go a run; tidy the house. Just set small goals to keep you destracted

We've had some laughs in the past and I'll just post this here so you see that you ain't alone

I am usually a happy person and I see myself rather successful in life I have a great job and I have a great family, but all this fell to shit in my head last Sunday and I haven't been able to be happy for more than a couple minutes at a time. My long lasting partner decided she needed time for herself and didn't find it was fair to not give me all the attention and love that I gave out to her. Now I'm not asking for pitty or anything but I haven't felt this destructive in years and I pretty much feel numb and I don't see a way out right now But I have to keep going because I live on my own, my clients depend on me and I need to be there for my family even though at this time I'm worthless. What I'm trying to say is that life is unfair and those people from that group don't deserve your love. Medication is always a last resort. What's helping me right now is working out, hitting the iron and listening to music, professional help is also a great way to understand yourself and grow.

At the end of the day, it's your life and you can do what ever the fuck you want to do. Don't look down upon yourself because you're worth so much dude.

I'll always be there to talk if you need me. I might not be in the best place right now but I'm always there to help.

You are NOT alone.

Kurze#1427

gimme a message on discord mate, always able to talk with you especially with how far back we can go

Discord: Clarky#6969

Sally wrote: Totally agree.

We all have that one friend who makes you feel comfortable talking about your personal issues, hit him up or do something you enjoy. just give it time it'll pass.