I will most likely not go onto the server for awhile it's not forever it'll be like a month or two it's some serious stuff with my mental health and I would talk to people in my life however knowing them they will probably not believe me and not only that but I'll try to get over some stuff in the past and time for less serious question how are you all doing today?(probably gonna just do stuff like play some single player games and talk to the boys)
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That's sad and also great to hear that you're taking some time off for yourself man, everybody needs that now and again. Whatever you may be going through man just remember that it will get better as cliché as that is, it truly is the case.
Try speaking to people like you said but it is incredibly sad that you believe they may not believe you, this could be you overthinking it. However, I obviously do not know your situation so I cannot comment on that entirely. Even speaking to people online that you trust can really be a great way to let off some stress and get some things off your chest, even if the person is just listening.
I hope when you come back (which I hope you do) you have found ways to feel more positive and better your mental health, take care of yourself buddy!