TOPIC: what made me stay 2.1 To Davidov007

Davidov007 wrote:
Hello Davidov007,

You already know my name, and my titles, so I will skip over those.
Regarding your question, the reason why I am not Murder Owner is because back in the days when I was Head Administrator over Murder, I had no need for the title of Owner, it was not something that I wanted to seek, I was happy with just being Head Administrator. But before I was Head Administrator, I struggled and struggled to become what I wanted, which spoiler alert, I did become. I had to work for hours upon hours every single day, my love and dedication for Murder had peaked, but I worked too hard, I got denied for bullsh*t reasons, or that is what I believe, I never actually got any good reason. So I continued working and working, until I finally got it. Sure I was happy, all my hard work and dedication finally paid off, I could help out more. But I was drained, so my dedication fell, and so did my activity. I tried to regain that lust to make Murder great again, but it died some time ago. So I continued and continued, without a break. I had bad activity, yes, but that is all that I could handle, I was dried empty. My activity got worse and worse, so did the state of Murder. After a while, it got replaced, by Jailbreak. Luckily I got Head Administrator on Jailbreak at the start, or I thought I was lucky. I was sad that the server that I worked so hard on got removed, but I had to move on. Sure Jailbreak was fun, at the start. But I was still drained after what happened previously. After a while I had to resign, I couldn't continue, there were people more deserving of the role.
But I am getting a little bit off the topic, I apologise for it. Before everything with Jailbreak, TheXnator, the previous Murder Owner, current Community Manager, had resigned. That left the Murder Owner spot empty. I thought this was my chance to step up. But I had no previous Owner experiences, so I decided to learn how to code. I wanted TheXnator to be proud of me, I could not let him down, or the Murder server. But then ChuteUK, the current Community Owner, decided that he was going to step up and take care of Murder in the meanwhile. I was a little sad, but I thought about the best of the server, and it was good that ChuteUK took up the mantle as the Murder Server Owner. Then TheXnator revoked. So my chances of getting Murder Owner was low, but after all my dedication had fell, I thought it was for the best.
But I have always defended Murder, I was actually the first ever person to apply for Murder, and I had been there since day one, I have always been staff, after I got accepted at the first ever ZARPGAMING Murder Server meeting. And I still continue to defend and push for the Murder Server to come back as a US host, because I believe. I love Murder, and I always will.
Maybe I will become the next Murder Server Owner, or maybe not. Probably the latter, but I will still work my hardest on Murder, no matter what. I might not have the coding skills as others, I might not have the Owner experiences as others, I might not have been staff for over half a year that others have, but what I do have, which cannot be compared to others, is my burning love, passion and dedication that I had and still continue to have for Murder. Thank you.

-The Future Owner & Manager of Murder