TOPIC: [SSRP] PugLife's Appeal

Name
Pug Life
STEAM-ID
STEAM_0:0:168221926
Admins Name
Eipus/Clarky
Reason
Mass Abuse
Server
SSRP
Time
Permanent
Story
All my friends were leaving Zarp and I was about to leave too since I did not have the time to keep playing, I wanted to have the last bit of fun so I was not caring about the rules, someone said he was gonna report me so I banned him cause I was getting demoted anyway, then it proceeded later on to banning everyone so me and my friends had the sever to ourselves. I then joined s1 and Eipus froze me, he was asking why I banned everyone and I responded with some racist slurs and then I was permanently banned.
Extra Information
After my ban I went ahead to ban evade and have on a couple of occasions had bad behaviour on the forums. I keep digging myself an even deeper hole by fucking up again doing stupid stuff, iv said some stuff that I didn't mean and I shouldn't of said. I keep being told to play other point shop severs but like when I was leaving I still haven't had much time due to college/work/family. this year has been the hardest for me and iv haven't had much time to do stuff, I have some free time where i try to come online and speak with friends for a couple of hours but they seem to be all returning to Zarp. I am unable to show consistent activity on the severs. I want to be unbanned so I can use my bit of time on a sever I enjoy and with the community I love playing with.
I am really sorry for all my actions I never thought of the consequences or thought of the trouble staff members had to go through to fix my mess. Anyone I affected individually I said sorry to and everyone forgave me except a couple. To Eipus who still hates my for good reasons I am sorry for disrespecting you, you happened to be the admin that froze me and I would of done it to anyone, it was nothing personal and I hope one day you can forgive me. in my last appeal I had lied and said I played pointshop severs for a lot longer than I had and said the gametrackers were broken. I knew that I would not be able to play any time soon so I lied to try to get the unban. I admit this time I don't have activity and the reason is I simply i don't have the time. I am sorry to Reaker for wasting your time to check play time and sorry for not being honest. I knew that I had ruined all chances to get an unban then so I said some things that I did not mean and take it back. I am truly sorry to anyone who I affected/let down and hope someday you can forgive me.
I am unable to get consistent activity on any sever and wish we can find a way of giving me a chance another way, I have currently had a bit of time spare where I have played severs like bhop, surf and jailbreak, but I wont be able to carry on as I have things coming up in the next few days. this probably wont be my last appeal before being accepted and I have probably ruined all my chances completely to ever come back. but I am trying my hardest to make things right, even this appeal took a lot of effort and time which I had to write twice, I care about the sever and the community and want to prove that if I was unbanned you wont regret it. If I get accepted I promise I will try my hardest to not get any warns and will not do anything inconsiderate again. I know I fucked up but I hope you can give me just 1 more chance. everyone's made mistakes, I know I made multiple serious ones but I hope we can find a solution.
To the people handling and dealing with this thankyou for your time, please speak with me and ask questions before reaching a final conclusion, it is much appreciated and again to everyone I let down I am deeply sorry.