xxmaster, let me tell you something.
When I first joined the community, there was a funny video on the forums of these African kids advertising your ban appeal by holding up a sign and saying "Unban xxmasterxx at zarpgaming.com".
It was definitely a funny thing to watch, and less than a month later you were unbanned.
The CM team decided to give you a "second chance", although I'm sure you were already given plenty of "second chances" before that point.
Shortly after, you got SSRP Moderator and not much later a promotion to Administrator. You made a staff review post that you kept updated on the forums, and you kept saying how great the staff team was. The users said the same about you.
You kept applying for SA every week, and although I was not in those meetings I am sure that you got closer and closer as the weeks went by.
It was quite literally you holding up to every promise you had made. Finally, xxmasterxx had left his former mingy life behind and became a good member of this community, one that I would have proudly called a great person.
And then you resigned.
In such a short amount of time, you threw everything away. All your hard work, dedication to the community and all that trust and effort were squandered so easily.
And so you got banned. From the forums, from TS and if I recall correctly, even from SSRP a few times.
And every time you made a ban appeal, you said one single thing:
"I'm sorry. I'll change now, I swear."
And you know what? I was actually stupid enough to believe it.
"He's changed now, guys!" I'd say. "Just look at his apology on the forums!"
And so you were unbanned.
And not long after, you were banned again.
And you know what I would then see on the forums?
"I'm changed now, guys! I was stupid before, but now I see how wrong and stupid I was and I am really sorry for everything I've done!"
And once again, I fell for it. "See, guys! I told you he was a great guy!"
And once again, you were given another "second chance."
And not longer after, you were banned. Again. And so the cycle repeated itself.
I see now the error in my ways before. I can definitely go far before I stop trusting in you, and you have well stepped over that line.
A user that has been given as many chances as you, a former staff member that used to do great and yet has done the exact opposite since; I cannot possibly give you another chance.
You used to do great, and perhaps you keep hinting to that time when you say you've "changed."
Yet even now, you break rules on SSRP and show a sometimes appalable attitude on the forums.
When you made the last ban appeal, I asked one thing: "Does he have recents on SSRP?"
After all, if you'd truly be the changed man you claim to be, you'd surely not break any rules on SSRP currently.
And what was the answer I got? "Yes, he does."
If you want me to believe in you ever again, to truly see you as the changed man you somehow believe you are, then prove it.
You're not banned on SSRP I don't think. So prove to me- prove to all of us that you can actually keep up on your promises this time.
And then, maybe, I will believe in you again. But as it stands, you have not proven to be worthy of my trust; the exact opposite, actually.