TOPIC: My confession to everything

Most of the people inside the community will take me as a minge that is because i was the first 4 months bieng a staff
My first week of being a mod i killed myself as a hitman this was an accident but still the demote request back then got accepted and i got talked to (Then for a long time i dident do anything wrong)
Link to my confession and apolagy: www.zarpgaming.com/index.php/forum/gener...-demote-appeal#80953
Well during that time i met REDPHOENIX wich was a great friend of mine and he told me to buy csgo and i did But after about 100 hours in the game he told me u could bet with skins and earn more money that seemed interesting for me so one day i was doing f1's as usual and a guy made about another guy selling csgo skins for RP cash i knew it wasent allowed but i thought Why the f*ck not buy it because you are able to sell skins and get steam money so bassicly fake money for real monet so i bought some skins started betting and i won alot but with alot i mean like 1000$ but i started getting an addiction so i needed more and more skins and thats what i did i bought skins worth around 300-400£ all together so that was alot of RP cash wasted into shit that isent allowed then around 2 months ago from now i disrespected kinpin calling him a f*ggot because he killed me in a bank raid wich only had 3 seconds left i got talked about that cause yet again i got reported then from in these 2 months about a month ago i bought 1 final skin and i told tigzter about me buying csgo skins cause he allready knew i did that and me and him had a lenghty talk about it and he letted me get away with it but it was my final chanche for him but i was acting like a big minge just in general i called my friends faggots cause i thought it was funny but it wasent.

And then today i was a swat and i saw that para was wanted in spawn and the dumb person i am was trying to arrest him and he killed me BUT! i thought NLR doesent count in spawn so i went back and para gave me a warning about it and i readed motd again after that and then about an hour later i saw that someone activated a nuke launch i found him i told him i wasent going to arrest him or deactivate his nuke since he was in bhood wich would be failrp of me but then he shot me after i told him i wouldent do anything to him then i clicked 4 times after i tazed him wich dident add anytime compared to a normal taze since i was out range so the tazor detached but by the time he was trying to kill me i deactivated it he got really mad and salty and decided to report me to para and first thing i did when i talked to para was lie to him about it but then he got the vid and i did a full confession he told me that i would get one more chanche but i couldent accept it i told him to bring it up in the lead team since this might sound very cocky dumb and stupid of me but i want to see what i am worth for this community because ive done a shit ton of f1's ive shown dedications mulitple times as i was offerd an admin rank on the server of elitstudio and declined it and ive just putted all my spare time i have into zarp helping zarp out trying to keep the server fun to play

So thats my full confession of what i did wrong in my time being a staff member.
I made a strawpoll because i really want to know what you guys think about me being a staff member.

Only look at this spoiler after readin all of that

OOh yeah most of the staff will know i was going for SA well that has been made impossible now <3