Eh.
End of the day, things like this have happened with other users. I believe people can change, and maybe you might one day. But today, you're gonna have to deal with people not being happy with the way you deal with things. They're gonna wanna eat you alive. But the fact that you admitted it shows... courage, at least.
You're not "absolved", by any means. But this is a good start. Just keep an eye on your responses, too. Maybe think about what you type before you type it; as apologising and then lashing out is a great way to lose even more faith in a short space of time.
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