Going to be honest here, you just recently did something very bad and I suggest you settle down a bit before trying to apply for admin. I doubt you've regained the trust of most admins. After recent events I do not trust you so I'll not support this, if you improve and show that you can be trusted my opinion may change. As you do seem genuine most of the time I'll still give you a good luck I just feel you need some time to settle in after the recent events.