Sorry if it didn't had a really bad subject name, I really don't know what name I should put in there, also... This can sound kinda weird.... I don't know what to do anymore about a thing than I found out yesterday...



Life can be really unfair sometimes (mostly everytime)... Everyone will end up having some problems, one better than another.. But some problems are really bad at all, without options and hopes... I don't know what to do... I just know than I felt different from yesterday to today...



Well, I'm remembering about things than I thought before and I'm writing it slowly...



Sorry if I'm doing this.... I kinda feel like I shouldn't make this here....



I don't want to bother everyone of you with this so I might end this now...



Okay now I'm really going to end this...

And admins, please don't delete this... Please... If you think about deleting don't do it... IDK why I'm asking this.

Peace

Sorry if it didn't had a really bad subject name, I really don't know what name I should put in there, also... This can sound kinda weird.... I don't know what to do anymore about a thing than I found out yesterday... [spoiler]okay, I wasn't the first one who knew about it.... First was her sister about 2 weeks ago... Just... The girl who were mine girlfriend told me than she wants to broke up with me cuz she have cancer, I don't know since when she haves it, even her sister... But I found weird both don't reply me about 2 weeks [/spoiler] Life can be really unfair sometimes (mostly everytime)... Everyone will end up having some problems, one better than another.. But some problems are really bad at all, without options and hopes... I don't know what to do... I just know than I felt different from yesterday to today... [spoiler] yesterday I was about don't wanting to get away from her, stay with her... Today I'm like, if she thinks is better go away from her I have to do it, even knowing than probably I won't live with that (like yesterday). But I still wish than she stays strong and get save from this cancer, I mean... She recovers from it (if possible) [/spoiler] Well, I'm remembering about things than I thought before and I'm writing it slowly... [spoiler] she isn't from mine country... Actually... If wasn't that about the cancer, she probably would travel to here and I was going to meet her on real... I already had lots of plans to do with her and lots of dreams with her, but those get slowly destroyed since I didn't talked with her lots of times... I thought than she was only busy because of the work... I never was expecting than she would have cancer... Like, still early to her giving up from her life and dreams... I know than she haves an Audi Q7 but the car than she really wants is an Ford Mustang... Actually I don't know so much about her cuz I never had that time to ask her everything... Now I really don't have that time to ask... [/spoiler] Sorry if I'm doing this.... I kinda feel like I shouldn't make this here.... [spoiler]i think than I probably only have 4 ways to choose, but I only have one to pick... 1: stay with her anyway, doesn't matter what will happen, even the worst happens (I'm not wishing the worst... And it really sounds like she wants to broke up with me... But if the worse thing happens, what I'm going to do after it?) 2: make like she told and broke up, keep moving and get other girl (I might do it, but, after it I will feel like I did the right thing? And I won't live like that with it?) 3: make like she told and broke up, doing nothing about it and keep alone? (like the second one, Ii will be able to live like that and don't help her? I really be able to live like that? Also I would end up being alone... I kinda don't want this one... I have sure than I won't live like this way) 4: make nothing about it, ignoring everything... (is that even possible to do?) [/spoiler] I don't want to bother everyone of you with this so I might end this now... [spoiler] this can sound a little weird, or not. But I really wanted to her don't give up from her life, keep going, staying strong and have success fighting that cancer (brain tumor and maybe other thing... I'm not sure and she doesn't even told me more details)... She stills young to give up from life and die... She just turned 19 on the day 10 of June, the day when everyone stoped replying me... I really want to her keep alive to tell her childs (if she decide to have some) how she fighted that cancer and keep alive... Weirdly I have the feeling than it won't be possible... [/spoiler] Okay now I'm really going to end this... And admins, please don't delete this... Please... If you think about deleting don't do it... IDK why I'm asking this. Peace