As many of you may know this is not the first thread I have made about weight loss.
Many of you have seen me make huge leaps in my progress in my weight loss about 1 year ago.
I am here today to confess that all the progress that I have made is gone.

Over the last year, I have suffered from a lot of stress in real life and here on Zarp.
Being a community manager is not as easy as some people may think, Due to my rank I am targeted every single day for who I am and what I do. Every decision I make needs to be well thought out or I get backlash for it over the forums for weeks on end.
During my time as head administrator on all servers, this barely phased me at all. at that given time I was already staff for over a year on the Zarp community.
When I officially ran for Community Manager in January 2017 I never knew how stress full being on the very top could be.
It is not the work that is difficult but pleasing every single party is.

I cannot go a single day without making a decision and get a few people telling me how unfair my choice was.
I have had my Ip leaked over the forums I have had my personal information leaked, My home address, my families info and many other things all exposed against my own will.
The thought of resigning has crossed my mind many times this year due to all the stress it was giving me, all the hatred I got over steam. Sometimes it ended up in pure bullying.

Due to all the stress I sought comfort in food and I did that for almost a whole year now.
I was dishonest with my friends and told them I was still going well with my weight loss when in question I was not.
To deal with the stress I often reached out for food and all the progress I made during that time was ruined.

I want to pick my life back up and put my self on the right track because I have had enough of this
I owe a big thank you to Lucy for listening to me when I needed someone to talk to the most.
Even though I only just met her she has helped me more than I could ever imagine or ask of someone.
She has inspired me to pick up my weight loss again and work my ass off to go back to where I was before the stress happened. She has shown me that Garrysmod is actually a lot of fun, I always told people I don't play the servers because it is boring. But in reality I was just suffering from so much stress that I tried to hide away from the community. Lucy has shown me that I shouldn't hide from the people I consider family and gave me a reality check on the entire situation.

I want to thank everybody for reading this topic as it means a lot to me.

[center][img]https://image.ibb.co/muSxm5/weightloss.png[/img][/center] As many of you may know this is not the first thread I have made about weight loss. Many of you have seen me make huge leaps in my progress in my weight loss about 1 year ago. I am here today to confess that all the progress that I have made is gone. Over the last year, I have suffered from a lot of stress in real life and here on Zarp. Being a community manager is not as easy as some people may think, Due to my rank I am targeted every single day for who I am and what I do. Every decision I make needs to be well thought out or I get backlash for it over the forums for weeks on end. During my time as head administrator on all servers, this barely phased me at all. at that given time I was already staff for over a year on the Zarp community. When I officially ran for Community Manager in January 2017 I never knew how stress full being on the very top could be. It is not the work that is difficult but pleasing every single party is. I cannot go a single day without making a decision and get a few people telling me how unfair my choice was. I have had my Ip leaked over the forums I have had my personal information leaked, My home address, my families info and many other things all exposed against my own will. The thought of resigning has crossed my mind many times this year due to all the stress it was giving me, all the hatred I got over steam. Sometimes it ended up in pure bullying. Due to all the stress I sought comfort in food and I did that for almost a whole year now. I was dishonest with my friends and told them I was still going well with my weight loss when in question I was not. To deal with the stress I often reached out for food and all the progress I made during that time was ruined. I want to pick my life back up and put my self on the right track because I have had enough of this I owe a big thank you to Lucy for listening to me when I needed someone to talk to the most. Even though I only just met her she has helped me more than I could ever imagine or ask of someone. She has inspired me to pick up my weight loss again and work my ass off to go back to where I was before the stress happened. She has shown me that Garrysmod is actually a lot of fun, I always told people I don't play the servers because it is boring. But in reality I was just suffering from so much stress that I tried to hide away from the community. Lucy has shown me that I shouldn't hide from the people I consider family and gave me a reality check on the entire situation. I want to thank everybody for reading this topic as it means a lot to me. [center][size=5]HERE COMES THE GOOD PART[/size] [color=#0088ff][size=4][b]With every 5 kilos ((11 pounds)) i lose im gonna do a give away on this thread. [/b][/size][/color] [size=5][b]how you can enter is easy all you have to do is Wait for one of my Giveaway Threads to show up and comment on it.[/b][/size] [size=5][b]HEIGHT[/b][/size] [size=4]193 cm 6.4 ft[/size] [size=5][b]STARTING DATE:[/b][/size] [size=4]25-09-2017[/size] [size=5][b]STARTING WEIGHT:[/b][/size] [color=#ff0000][b][size=4]106 kilos ((233 pounds))[/size][/b][/color] [size=5][b]CURRENT WEIGHT:[/b][/size] [b][color=#880088][size=4]106 kilos ((233 pounds))[/size][/color][/b] [b]5 KILOS LOST ((11 POUNDS)):[/b] [b]10 KILOS LOST ((22 POUNDS)):[/b] [b]15 KILOS LOST ((33 POUNDS LOST)):[/b] [b]20 KILOS LOST ((44 POUNDS LOST)):[/b] [b]25 KILOS LOST ((55 POUNDS LOST)):[/b] [b]????? KILOS LOST ((????? POUNDS LOST)):[/b][/center]