I have spoken to the admin that banned you and I can see that not only did you threat to DDOS, which is a permaban, you also decided to ruin the roleplay experience for everyone on the server by RDMing and RDAing.
Despite your condition, you should really consider what your attitude is like at the point in time. You would have stopped yourself if you wanted to, I know what ADHD is like. Try again in a few weeks once you have worked on your attitude and if it was due to the lack of tablets, I suggest not going on servers while you have none.
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