I have hope for you on SSRP but have not seen you on ssrp unless I don't know your name.
On TTT that was wrong but if you are willing to be a good staff member I am willing to give you support but we must both agree nothing against the rules so no racial slurs. I don't know if someone took your words out of context but if you did you can change that and that's where you could turn it around I'd just advise be on the server more.
Just because you get banned on 1 server doesn't mean you should not have to right to play zarp but Dissagree on the staff part for ssrp I don't think you're ready as I haven't seen you on.