I think you need to regain trust before going to admin
My last time as a staff member was over 4 months ago, nearly 5.
Since then i admit my attitude and behavior wasn't the best on server or directed towards any players or member of the community. However after my month long ban which ended quite some time ago i dedicated my time to improving myself as a person, Since the last time i was staff i have greatly matured as a person and taken the time out of my day to apologize personally to anyone i may have effected and have drastically improved my attitude and my behavior.
Red I know we have not got along in recent days, however like many others, i'd like to contact you privately to talk to you about this more and hopefully show you the newer side of me.