You know I just thought about something..

I'd suggest that you just play on the server, don't get punished, be friendly and try to help out players by answering their questions etc and then apply again in idk 3 or 4 weeks perhaps?

Like it was said earlier, if someone applies they will likely have a spotlight on them which is especially true for someone like you. So maybe its a better option to re-integrate yourself properly as a normal player first before going for staff again, because what you need to see is that you've caused a lot of headache in the past and as you can clearly tell this is still what people think of you, even those who haven't personally interacted with you which is a clear sign for your currently bad reputation among the community.

So what do you think of this suggestion?