The big difference is that you kept on telling people to kill themselves. You did it repetitively, which is not only offensive, but harassment. I can say that I will not take your point of view without any further evidence. You don't show us anything before the message you put in admin chat as i do not believe that is the entire story. You don't seem to learn and have any regards for the rules and just try and ruin other's experiences. Knowing you and the last time I saw you on you were racist to me multiple times, I find it hard to believe that there's not something else to it. Follow the template as well.