I'm thoroughly aware of what I did, but I am also aware of the reasons behind it, and the unfortunate aspects of the situation. As I've said before, I can apologise for what I've done, albeit it intentional or not, but as I know (and only I know), that I do not avoid being death intentionally, nor do I hate being death, I can't bring myself to show any more remorse from that, simply for the fact that I have been playing Deathrun for 4 years and know full well that I'm not that sort of person, and as such won't do it again. Had this been every time I am death, then perhaps. But as I have dozens of hours on this server and the 10 minute space in question is the only time (and with reasoning), I'm failing to see how this impacts my ability on being staff, that's all. As I said, however, I do welcome all comments and debate, so thank you for your input!