You might be apologetic, but the admins told you specifically to fully turn off your game. The fact that you decide to reload the server whilst still having hacks on is your own fault and you'll have to accept the consequences of that.

You need a break, as others have stated. Appeal in a few weeks and we'll see what we can do. But for now, you're not allowed on the server and this appeal is officially denied.

You might be apologetic, but the admins told you specifically to fully turn off your game. The fact that you decide to reload the server whilst still having hacks on is your own fault and you'll have to accept the consequences of that. You need a break, as others have stated. Appeal in a few weeks and we'll see what we can do. But for now, you're not allowed on the server and this appeal is officially denied.