Think you need to go for moderator first considering your recent denial reason. If you choose to follow my advice change your title to lock and your post to "I don't want this to be voted upon". However if it went for your denial reason last time you would have my support. I just think we need trust in you first.
Good luck!
I fully understand where you are coming from but i believe i am ready to uptake the rank of Admin presuming i have had alot of experience before and im sure i have learnt from my mistakes.