Well, what can I say? As the title suggests, I’m done. I’ve done what I wanted to do and I don’t see anything changing anytime soon. For the past year I’ve done my best to go above and beyond and to show that I can in fact do this. From the start my goal has been to help as many people as possible and, well, I’d say it’s worked rather well. Obviously a few people wouldn’t be happy with what I’d do, but I’ve done my hardest to at least be there for everyone.
Having started with TTT, I slowly moved my way across several servers. TTT kept being the predominant one and I’ve continuously done my hardest to do my job on there. Over time I’d visited other servers as well, namely Deathrun, SSRP, Prophunt and Surf. I’d resigned from every single one of these (only to return to Deahtrun and SSRP later down the line) but TTT has always hold a place close to my heart, and it forever will.
Having become Lead Team on a total of three servers, as well as Global Moderator, Teamspeak Head Administrator and ending as the runner-up to the 2018 CM votes is to me a sign that what I’ve done and achieved is actually respected within the community. To me it is a sign that I’ve been doing the right thing.
That feeling is indescribable. That your actions actually have an effect, a positive effect even is a great feeling. The past year has been one of the best experiences of my life.
Today, 10 months and 17 days after joining the community, is the day that I’m leaving. I’ve done my absolute best to leave with a positive mindset and that’s what I’m doing. Hopefully I’ve managed to convince everyone in the TTT HA meeting and make both Johnler as well as Cranky HA’s. If I’ve managed to do that, I know that I can leave with the thought that TTT will be okay.
As with all other resignations, my post also includes a thank you list. I’ve counted and there are approximately
on this list. So, yeah, let’s get to it then.
Thank you list
Chuteuk
Big man Chute! Your dedication to the community is definitely something to be admired. You’ve been a helpful inspiration for me along the way. Thank you for everything – if you hadn’t owned ZARP I obviously wouldn’t be here now, practically none of us would be. Good luck with everything man!
EMP
You’re an absolute legend. I’ve spoken to you multiple times about some interesting policy stuff, and I will never forget the first time we properly spoke (outside from that one Prophunt meeting) and you said you wanted to demote me haha. Thanks for everything man, hope things will go well for you!
Tyler
I can always come to you if I have any issues. I’ll never forget your support throughout my staffing career. Thanks for everything. Sorry that this is a little short, but you know how much you mean to me.
Max
Thanks for everything Max! You’ve been a great owner for TTT, might still join from time to time if there’s another interesting update. Good luck with your CM career man!
Captin
Thank you for everything! You’re the best meeting host in the community (besides me, obviously) and I wish you the best of luck! I absolutely love your taste in movies and TV series by the way
Morgan
I have great respect for your hard work, thanks for everything! Good luck for Global Moderator at the end of the month – you and a few others deserve it in my opinion.
Onion
I don't always agree with what you do, but I have great respect for you and what you’re trying to achieve. You're a great person. Have a great time man! Good luck with everything!
Sarah Anne
Sarah, you’re great. You love your job, you love the community and you love helping the members of the community and it shows in how you treat the staff team. I couldn’t think of a more fit owner for Deathrun than you. I wish you the best of luck, have a great time!
Annie
Annie, we’ve known each other for so long now. You were there when I first started playing TTT and we’ve come a long way since then. I’ve helped you get SA, and I’ve done my best to defend you whenever I can. Of course I did find some things inexcusable, like when you went for staff on so many servers and clearly couldn’t keep it up (though I can accept it the first time, but you actually did it twice in your career haha) but I still have great respect for everything you’ve done. You’re a great friend to me, Annie, hopefully you’ll do even better in the future. Good luck!
Xnator
We’ve come far since our issues back in May. I don’t exactly know what to say here, you know what I think of you. I was the one that got you SSRP SA so you better live up to the things I expect from you. Good luck man, and I’m sure we’ll still talk!
Hazzenator
You’re an absolute legend, you know that? You need to stop minging on SSRP though, it’s starting to get you in trouble! You also need to fucking become active on TTT for once man! Nah, for real though, thanks for everything
Chienman
Dude, do I actually have to tell you how much I love you? We’ve got each other on Facebook, contact me if you ever want to. Of course we can still speak over Steam, too. Have a great time man, and I wish you the best of luck with your life!
Johnler & Cranky
Hopefully I got what I wanted and the both of you are now TTT Head Admins. This is exactly why I wanted two, and not just one. Like when Johnler left I wanted to ensure that the TTT staff team, and especially the Lead Team is in good shape. All I could hope for would be for Brenzor to still be in it, but other than that I’m extremely happy with how things are currently. If one of you didn’t get HA then I’m sorry, I tried my best. Other than that, I’ve put what I thought of the both of you on your applications – take that as my leaving note. Good luck for the both of you, you’ll do well!
Bazaraxe
Bazaraxe my dude, we haven’t spoken a lot recently. You’re also resigning right now and I wish you the best of luck, and please make sure you keep that brother of yours in check. Beat him if you have to, you have my full permission!
Polsee
I know I’ve already apologised, but I’m going to do it again. Sorry for what I did back then, I was quite stressed out at the time. Hopefully you’ll get owner soon, though I’m unsure whether or not the current owners + CM team have such a thing planned. Good luck with everything!
Alexander
How often did we speak? A couple of times, not enough for me to properly understand what kind of a dude you are though. I know you’re a great guy, though, and you absolutely deserve HA. Best of luck for the future man!
Silent
Silent you’re an awesome dude! Don’t get demoted from Bhop please and actually go to the bloody meetings. I’ll speak to you from time to time I’m sure, best of luck with your work and stuff!
Aek
Aek, you’re great. I haven’t spoken to you properly as much recently, but you’re still a lad. Stop being absolutely disgusting in spacers though, it seriously triggers me.
Nick
Nick, you’re a legend. Best of luck for the future. The secret that we didn’t tell you was simply that I was going to do my best to get both Johnler and Cranky accepted, something I hope actually worked out. And no, I did not tell them I was going to resign. Only a couple of people knew about that and I purposely didn’t tell them or you – some things have to stay a surprise, y’know. You’ll get far I’m sure, I wish you the best of luck!
Shadow
I have to say, Shadow, I did not expect you to get TTT SA. And I’ll be honest: my vote would probably have been no had I been at the meeting. However I see that I might have been wrong – so far you seem to do your job rather well and I’m sure you’ll only get better. Good luck man, I’m sure you will get further if you try your best!
Fred Wroolie
Fred, I dislike your troll behaviour as well as some of your idiotic tendencies with the rules. Staff are allowed to demote users with a job? Seriously? But whatever, that’s not really an excessive issue more so that I simply can’t stand it lol. You’re a great guy, good luck on HA!
Clarky
Clarky man, take a fucking break already. A proper one. Don’t join the TS, don’t join the servers and just do what you want to do. Come back in a few weeks’ time and you’ll be back in proper shape. You’ll be fully able to do your job once again. Trust me, I’m speaking from experience. Anyways, you’re an absolute legend and deserve global mod at the end of the month. Hopefully the staff team isn’t stupid enough to give it to someone else and not you. Good luck man, have a great time!
Duckrevoe
Stop being so god damn inactive man! – QUACK
Spoder
Gast, je bent geweldig. Als je ooit weer problemen hebt zoals die ene keer vergeet dan niet om me gewoon een berichtje te sturen. Ik mag dan geen deel meer uitmaken van ZARP maar dat betekent niet dat ik niet mijn best kan doen om je te helpen. Veel succes verder, je bent echt heel goed bezig
Spicy
You probably weren’t expecting this, were you? Only yesterday you asked me to go for HA (not that you were the only one, though) and I told you to wait for tomorrow. I assume you expected an application, but nope, it was actually this. Originally I only wanted to make sure TTT left in a good shape by getting the people I wanted accepted. But as we had an SSRP LT meeting with but a few people I managed to get you and SyStem accepted as well. I’m 100% sure you’ll do a great job on the server, I wish you the best of luck man!
SyStem
I kind of already told you what I think of you on your post regarding your life. I disagree with how you behave, but you show plenty of Lead Team capabilities to warrant a promotion to SA. It is because of that that I’ve decided to vote yes for you in the meeting. I might disagree with how you treat certain individuals but especially during the meeting you really did show that you deserve a higher rank. I wish you the best of luck, I’m sure you’ll do brilliantly as a Super Admin!
Windows
Windows, you’re a great guy. And you have a microphone now! Please stop screwing up the meeting outcomes and application replies – it seriously triggers me how much space there is in between the lines. Have a great time man, I’m sure you’ll do well!
ERROR_404
Dude, I’ve known you for so long. I have to say I never expected you to get SA after you came back, or at least not so quickly. Colour me impressed. You’re a great guy and I’m sure you’re doing your job well. I wish you the best of luck with everything, if you need anything don’t be afraid to message me!
B4nqk0k
If someone told me when I joined that you would be a Deathrun SA at the end of the year I’d tell them they’re mad. Yet here we are, and man do I feel like a bit of an idiot. You’re a great guy, able to do your job and you interact so much with the staff team it’s insane. Hopefully you’ll get HA eventually, you should be able to do really well. Good luck!
Jim Jam
Words can’t describe how much I love you. Trust me, had I been TTT HA at the time I’d have ensured you wouldn’t be demoted. You’ve been a good friend to me from the start and you deserve that Deathrun SA rank. I’m sure you’ll do well on the server. Thanks for everything!
Akemi/Anna
You shouldn’t be demoted from the forums. I know you’ve been doing your job, you’ve helped me yourself. I wish you the best of luck with everything, hopefully everything goes your way!
Wolfi
Last of the Lead Team mentions but definitely not the least, big man Wolfi! Haven’t spoken to you properly in a while. I have to say I’m impressed and I wish you the best of luck with Murder! It’s not quite my cup of tea, but I’m sure you’ll do well. Hopefully you’ll have a good time!
(from this point on it's no longer in any particular order)
TTT staff team
TTT is the reason I joined the community and its staff team deserves a special mention. I love every single one of you, I really really do. For those going for SA: don’t be afraid to message me for tips. I encourage it, even! For the rest, I wish you the best of luck with your job. Without all of you TTT would be nothing. Thank you all for everything. Thank you for the great time, the amazing laughs and being there for me when I needed you all the most. Seriously, you guys rock!
Chummy
Chummy my dude, I always go to you for advice. Whenever there’s something on my mind I go to you. You’ve been a great help to me and are one of the best people I know in ZARP. Thank you for everything, words simply cannot describe how much you’ve meant to me here.
Luki
Man, you’re a legend. When me and Xnator had a fight, you did your best to help out. When I needed your help you were there to help. You’re a great guy and I wish you the absolute best. I’m sure you’ll do well on school!
Rob
When you were in a less good state of mind we used to speak to each other in the evening. And it helped the both of us. I still have massive amounts of respect for you, I hope you do well on Deathrun and get that SA rank. Good luck man!
Patrick TM
Patrick, dude, I love you. Your maps are amazing and I’ll be sure to come on if there’s a new one on one of the servers. I also love talking to you, you’re a great guy. You seriously rock man!
EiPUS
I remember when I told you you’d get my vote as Appeal Section staff and you were kinda like “Wait, me, seriously?” I did my best to get you accepted and it worked because you fucking deserve it. You’re a great guy, the best jew on ZARP I know and deserve this special mention.
Sally
Sally, you’re great. I really love you as a staff member and basically everyone in the forum staff team agrees that you deserve Forum Administrator more than anyone. The amount of work you put into everything is insane. Seriously, thank you for all your hard work!
Joey Recon
I posted what I think of you on your resignation. You’re a great guy, I wish you the best of luck!
Blocked
Blocked, man, is it weird if I tell you I dreamt of you? I mean, it sort of is kinda very much, but I still feel like I should share it because it was that dream that convinced me to resign. It didn’t even have anything to do with the community, but the fact you were in it kind of made me think of our conversations and that video where you described why you’d stop with YouTube. It made me think about my life and the options I’ve got and because of that I decided on that day that I would resign this week. Thanks for everything, including breaking through time, space and even reality itself to visit me when I sleep. Which, thinking about it, is actually really really weird.
Sorle
You’ve been there for me, always. You’ve helped me when I’ve asked for help, you’ve given me advice when I needed it the most and you have continuously supported me with everything I do. And by the way, there’s a rather big chance I might do that thing you asked me to do. Thank you for everything man and see you soon!
Anon
Anon, man, I’ve already told you what I thought of you on your resignation. You’ve helped me massively and I’m sure we’ll still talk from time to time. Good luck on your driving lessons and especially the best of luck with that stuff you told me – I hope everything goes well for you!
Sada
Sada you fucking drama whore I absolutely love you. You’ve been a great help to me and you do have some really good ideas from time to time. I hope you’ll have a great time man
Grumpy
Grumpy, you’ve been a help to me from the start. You’ve helped me massively and I still remember the days that you joined TS daily to help with TTT issues. It’s sad how that slowly went downhill, but that doesn’t change the fact I absolutely fucking love you. Thank you for everything!
Klaprefot
Klap you fucking racist I love you. I especially love how you can take the criticism I’ve given you. You might not always listen to it, but the fact that me criticising you hasn’t made you think any less of me shows that you are definitely a great guy. I still remember when we first met on TTT server 2 and how you got banned shortly after lol. I hope you’ll have fun with whatever you do man!
Micky
Micky, I love you and everything you do. You’re a legend, keep doing whatever you want to do and I sincerely hope you’ll have fun doing it. Good luck with everything!
Nafe
Dude, you’re great. Just stop being a minge and you’d make an excellent staff member. I sincerely hope you’ll do good with whatever you’re going to be doing and I hope you’ll have a great time!
MsMs
Love you my dude. Message me if you need anything, although I might not always be able to help. I hope you’ll have a great time staffing!
Sora
Sora my guy, thanks for everything. We haven’t always seen eye to eye on everything but you still supported me all the way. Thanks for that, I appreciate it. Sorry to say that the Raeker4CM train stops here, but I still love all the help you’ve given to me. Seriously, thank you.
AceInsidious & Roy
I’ve kinda put what I have to say to Ace on his resignation and Roy, you’re a great guy as well. You both deserve a mention here and I hope you’ll both have a great time. Good luck with everything! #Jailbreak
Sophia
Dankjewel dat ik nog dat interview heb mogen afnemen. Het heeft me echt heel erg geholpen, uiteindelijk eindigde ik met een 7 voor het project. Serious, bedankt voor alles. We zien elkaar nog wel in de WhatsApp
DB KILLER
I hope you’re doing good, we haven’t spoken in a while. If you need anything be sure to message me, I’ll do my best to see if I can help. Best of luck with everything!
VeGoVeVo
I hope my advice has helped you. Just keep on asking for feedback and keep trying to improve and then that SA rank will be yours before you know it. Good luck man!
Slifer The Sky Dragon & The Winged Dragon of Raa
Both of you are great people. Thank you for your companionship and I loved those games of EU4 we’ve played together. Maybe we should give it another shot soon, if we ever have the time. Good luck with school for the both of you, I hope you have a great time!
Tadgee
The legend himself, thank you for everything my guy. I appreciate the support. I hope you’ll have a great time, it’s been absolutely amazing to have you around. Good luck with Bhop (if you ever get accepted lol)!
Getzco & TheCorgi
I wish the both of you the best of luck, both with your staffing career as well as your IRL stuff. Thanks for being there for a nice conversation on TS from time to time, it’s really been quite fun. I hope you both have fun here in ZARP!
Father Watson
You’re great, man, you really really are. I’ve supported you for SA and I’d do it again. I can only wish you the absolute best and message me if you’ve ever got the time to finish that Civ game!
brenzor
Brenzor, dude, why the fuck did you have to resign? I know you’re busy and all but we need you god dammit! You’re an absolute legend and one of the best staff members I know. I have wanted to make you HA for fucking months now, but you were never active enough or you didn’t apply. I wish you the absolute best man, I’m sure you’ll do well with whatever you do.
Raifster
Raif, dude, you've been an absolute lad. It's been great having you around, words cannot describe how much I love you. Seriously man, I wish you the absolute best with school and life!
Indescribable Special Mentions
El Une Spoderman
Niko
Mytic
Troublemaker
Kewlkd (DeathWalks)
Rebekah
Loomy
XxmasterxX
Eleven
Tamaninja
Paramontana
Gamesys
NeonRaider
Proscopez
BunnySlippers
Hamad
Exrobite
Pitt
Dramn
Na1
Erikas
Biwx Voorhees
Gloratic
Lewis/Nahmir
The Gamer Guy
Magik
Lewis!
Richie
Diet Water
Shae
Keith Cozart
Poogle
Assassin
Kana
Scum
VyTeXx
Banana
Jenga
BDnico
Smo
FluffyOP
Agent Zero
Bryn/Lone Wolf
Rural
Studio Banter
Wells
Itzryzo
viaDragonz
Bobby Bobbys
ApoX
Jabbe
Sam the Sausage
Question
Wonky
Asylum
Boni
Nigerian Prince
SkeletonWarrior
MageJamy
HeyItsAlex
Jason
Michael
Random
Bigwhal
Denis
SwiiFTz
mpq
Boss Thresh
Carnifex
Wizard
Kapi
Ashur
Gmodtroller
Snake
Zelos (Viking)
Newdude
Sanchez
John Satanic
Hellforce
Boatzy
Mr Meeseeks
Svanzscape
R-Flex
Pug
DrConor
Rhys
DarrenC
Cyper
Dezmond
BananaSlanger
Kingpin
Jamez
Gems
Aspect
Muhammed Ali
FLeX
Loxeo
McOxygen
Toxim
LickMyLemons
Rroobbiin
Blueperson
Ascenda
Mr. White
Xeronise
Kodi
Bhavya
ToBeHonest
Crocodile & Haytham
JMT Rankin
Miia
Pennybomber
Orange
Mix3rz
Gody
DEADMONSTOR
Pikachu
José
Evilstewie
Mr. Pear
Kall
Yogurtbear
Pug Life
Dom
MsRevine
Nexize
Six
Overseer Nick
P0rtalSh0oter
Hamzah
Yogi Bear
Megumin
Leopatra
RedPowder
Jetzy
Mr. Ping
Mexi
Nutzu
Narexa
Lewis is Java
Hiko
Latram
Marijnishier
Plebian
Archik
Levibills17
DCX
Justintxz
Vakarian
Pegasus
Patriot
Jake
Black Kid
Ezehzz
Whidd
Lunatic
Luna
Illegal Immigrant
Paul Rafa
Smojea
Toto
Orestistsi
Yachty
Perry het vogelbekdier
Katje
Gurren Lagan
Insane1s (xInsaneSamurai)
Imtoppen
Jacknelli
LucyLevi
Maya
HarryAssment
And there you have it! It’s quite a big list and as always with big lists, there’s a big chance I missed someone. Please don’t be afraid to ask me over Steam or on this thread why I missed you as it was most likely not my intention.
Every single one of these people on this list mean so very much to me. Some more than others, obviously, but you can decide on your own how much you actually mean to me. If I’ve interacted with you in some shape or form then you’ve already helped me massively simply by existing, and if you’ve helped me either a little or a lot then you really do mean a whole lot to me.
Thank you, everyone. My time here in ZARP has been an absolute blast and I have to say that I never expected it to end so soon. I need to move on with my life and focus on my studies. I might still come on occasionally, but not too much. I’m done with ZARP now.
Seriously, thank you. I absolutely love every single one of you.