Mr. Richard wrote:
TheFierceOwl wrote:
Sryzo JUKE Squatta wrote:
Too bad attitude

yeah ik it was a shit attitude from me for the past year???? idk honestly have i changed 1 bit, no, am i trying to change 100% am i willing to change , again 100% dedicating my time and will all in changing myself since i now have plenty of time as the GCSE is examination session of May/June is cancelled . I will try my best to impress all of you ( not as a mod but as a user ) This isnt a calcification to get accepted rather to let you all know that i am going to try my best . With all the help ill get from the coming 5 - 6 applications ill be applying for the next 2 months ill make sure to amaze you all . thank you for pointing out where i am wrong and should fix .
This would be convincing if it wasn't the 1000th time that we are seeing a post like this.
as much as i hate to admit , but everyone does a mistake , mine was being extra foolish when nothing required that immature behavior but bare in mind the amount of offensive feedback people would give me when im trying my absolute best at behaving and participating , i did all those and i was still finding a lot of mentally damaging reply's but im not here to brag about how people are testing my patience and ability to withstand a high amount of pressure but coming from dearest friends was really painful and i decided yet again to throw it all to the ground wrongly . I do apologies and im also asking for a pathway . a pathway not only to the right way but to your hearts where i can see allowance not just " No , he has a terrible reputation and history with this server " while i am expecting that for the coming weeks but i also am expecting some leniency and love back from other players and staff team , Like today for example i saw a normal user on TTT and i was like Hi he was like i saw you from forums get away ... lol, thats why i instantly changed my name to obelisk the tormentor and you know what ? the users talked to me normally then thats what frustrates me the most , People not talking to me ever just predicted that i am a prick and annoying just because i had problems with certain " issues " atleast thats what i thought they were and judge according to that , But yes i do understand how else will he judge me but when i approach him not knowing him and he just tells me that , its just too harsh for a human being . Thank you for your advice and i will bare in mind.