Sorle wrote:
Archick wrote:
Sorle wrote:
I ask people at zarp because im afraid to talk to anyone else
I know this will sound superfluous, but in your mind, what's the worst thing that can happen if you talk to someone?
they will freak out and overreact and focus loads of attention towards me which i hate and probably just make it worse
Have you considered that everyone has their own insecurities and they are as afraid of you as you are of them? Maybe not as much since there may be some sort of social anxiety, but what you need to understand is that it's almost all in your head, you're disregarding the fact that they also want to make a good impression and what are you going to make them freak out with? As long as you're not running to them screaming "i want to murder you", I'm sure you're fine. I promise I understand what you said, but it would help
so much if you could wrap your head around this, really would. Medicine can help with the depression and social anxiety, which might take the edge of talking to others, but it wont save you from that feeling of "everyone infront of me is judging literally every word and gesture I make". They are not. They are there to have fun, to talk to people, nothing else. Anxiety is the biggest monster-under-the-bed in the world, in the sense that you know it's not something physical and it isn't
really there but it's also extremely crippling and hard to get rid of.
You have to set goals, to change your life-style and you will feel so much better about yourself that others will notice that and you will project confidence onto others. Still, nothing me or anyone else says will have that much of a impact IRL, sometimes you've to hit rock bottom to finally want to change things, hope it doesn't go that far.
The real problem is that you write this today, maybe ready for a change, but tomorrow is a new day and you will do everything the same, the videogames and the music, so you just continue on a cycle that drives you closer and closer to total despair.
There's nothing but your own mind stopping you, even if that's the worst barrier to cross.