TOPIC: My Apologies

Reason for Demotion

In the past week, I was confronted by Christopher, who explained to me I would be receiving a one week ban from Teamspeak, he said this would be my final warning. He made it seem the warning was for teamspeak only, but apperantly recently I found out after my demotion the warning was community wide for reasons I will say below.

I was demoted for Disrespect to staff, representing ZARP In a negative light, which, I most sincerally apologize for. I have no intention of making ZARP Look bad, or making myself look bad. I've been in ZARP For such a long time, and I plan to stay a lot longer.

So, after I was banned, 2 days later, an inncodent occurded where the harpers and brotherhood raided me and the Fourth Empire, my new gang, while building. When this happened, we were shocked that the Staff team would do such a thing, knowing raiding a building base is against the rules.

Around 10 minutes after the raid, I asked, why did you raid us while building, there is a clear building sign. They explained to me one of our gang members, was printing. I was shocked and confused as to why a gang member would print why we were building, Me and the gang leader told everyone that you could Not Print, Make drugs, grow weed, or shrooms, basically anything illegal.

The gang member was dealt with, but I was still furious that the staff didnt deal with that situation differently.

In my opinion, the way to handle that, would be to go to the player printing deal with him, and let the base continue to build. Not raid us, just for the sake of trying to beat us. After all of this, I told Dcx this, and slightly flamed him on steam. Dcx told me, he handled it the fun way, but I found it to be the unprofessional way to handle this situation.

After this, I was on The RP Server when Dcx pmed me a screenshot of my pm's to him on steam, where I was arguing with him that he should of tped to the player that was printing, warned/banned him, then let us continue to build. So I was talking to wolfgang, sent him the gyazo picture, and he sent it to Dcx, after all of this, I was furious that Wolfgang would just betray me like that, so I flamed him on steam as well.

After all of this, I was playing on the RP Server, when I was mugging a Moderator by the name of Creamy Donutz, I mugged creamy, and he pulled out his tommy gun. I tried to get this recorded, but my recording software was not working at the time sadly. After creamy was killed, note that more then likely they were all in there teamspeak room as usual, this would include Kenny, Creamy, and tigzter, most likely a few more. After creamy was killed, 2-3 seconds later, Tigz and Kenny come in and shoot, me, and continue to. I was shocked, as Im sure if it only took them 2-3 seconds to get there, they saw a bit of what happened. So I said in the admin chat, Tigz, your friend just broke the rules, please deal with him, I got it on video. At the time I thought I got in on video, but later I realised I hadn't when tigzter asked for proof, I immediatly went to my recording software's output folder, and was confused as to why the video was not there.

This was where it all boiled down to, the anger to wolfgang, Dcx, and creamy, and tigz, all boiled over, and I massively flamed someone who is one of my friends, tigzter. This was literally the worst thing I've done in my entire 12 months of being in this community, and I am so sorry for doing it. I hope Tigzter, Wolfgang, Dcx, Lazybro, everyone that I hurt today, and most of all the community, can forgive me.

I feel so ashamed of what I've done, I just hope you all can forgive me for this.

How I can Improve
I can improve myself, by representing myself, the staff, and the community in a more positive and nicer way.
I will be much more friendly at all times, on teamspeak, on and off the ZARP Servers, and on steam. I will try my best, to represent this community as best as I can. As I said, this has been the worst thing I've done in this community, and I'm so sorry for the way I acted over the past few weeks.

I'd also like to re-apologize to the people I've hurt before during the past Few Weeks.

To Kpro, Kpro, I'm still very sorry that I talked about you negatively behind your back, as promised , I have yet, and never will do it again.

To LazyBro, Lazybro, I'm very sorry that I told you to die of that horrible disease, it was rude, and I let my anger get the best of me.

To Wolfgang, Wolfgang, I shouldn't of flamed you, and for which , I hope you can accept my apology.

To Tigzter, Tigzter, I am very sorry that I always assume wrong of you, there have been multiple incodent's Im sure you still remember, where I've assumed you doing something, when you really haven't, and for which I am truly sorry, I hope you can forgive me for all I have done.

To Nameful, Sorry for the inapropriate ban, it seemed right in my position at the time, due to you threatened to break rules, and provoked me by stating you would leave after you did.

To Kenny, Kenny, I made a rude comment toward you, on the day of my demotion, and I quote "I'm sick of you always acting so cocky" hopefully someday, we will be friends again, if you do not think of me as one today.

To Sortus, Sortus, I'm sorry for banning you for calling me a rude word, I should of went to a teamspeak staff member, and went from there.

When I look back on it all, I am completely embaressed on the way I acted. A famous person on the internet once said, you can't change the past, but you can change the future. And that is exactly what I'd like to do. In the future, what you can expect to see from me, is an attitude improvement, more control of anger, Represent ZARP In a more positive, rather then negative way, and still stick to the same idea of helping the staff, players, and community. I'll say it once more, I'm still very sorry for all I have done. I hope you can all forgive me.

People will say, this thread is fake, that I did it so I wouldn't be demoted, not true.

At the end of the day, the decision to demote me and or community ban me, is still in place, for this sunday's meeting. I'm just apologizing, and hopefully better myself towards the players and staff involved.

Where's my apology?

You were like this before and you haven't changed yet.
Your apologies won't make you not get demoted.

You're entitled to your opinion, I've also been promoted.

It will be discussed this Next meeting.

It takes a big man to admit when he’s made a mistake but it takes an even bigger man to apologize.

He didn't apologize to me and he's doing that just so he doesn't lose Admin.

Nameful wrote:
Did you really just post that Mr. Negative?

I had to comment on this, I aint going to accept this apology... Sorry....

Sometimes I wonder...

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Never mind, but I am shocked myself to half those situations that happened before.

Requested By Chute - I'd also like to apologize to Kittai for not knowing who he was.

Morgan, if you are here for so long you are supposed to know how to act with most of situations. Your immaturity was shown in this demotion. If you just did this "apologise" to get your rank back (because this is going to be your task mostly) I cant see point of apologies.

I am going to be clear in here:

This is good, but if you want to be known as Morgan, not Promethean (no offense) you should change your character little a bit (example: talking behind their back).

My honest opinion in here is clear. If you want to show your dedication (not activity) to ZARP you should reapply.

P.S.This looks like trolling ^^

Well, I was requested by Chuteuk to apologize to him.

I see where your coming from as well, I will try harder in the future.

But note, at the end of the day, we're all human and we make mistakes.

Morgan, it's not a human mistake, it proves that you're immature and when you get mad you start insulting everyone and saying they should die of cancer.
You were always like this and you promised to change before.

Last time I checked, letting your anger get the best of you, and acting immature at times is a human mistake.
I've not always been like this either. Also, please read the 1,100 worded post I made above, I said it to one person, when I let anger get the best of me, there again, a human mistake.

Snupe wrote:

Oh Morgan, you always seemed like such an amazing member of staff. It's just a shame you got demoted , see you around buddy.

Progenic wrote:
I'm sorry to say but this apology is not sincere. He is only doing this so he can keep his rank. He has not changed at any point, he is still the same character that's been getting in shit. I feel that this apology is artificial. He said shit, saying sorry doesn't fix everything. Morgan needs to learn that a simple apology is not always enough and he must face the fact that he may never be forgiven.

He still has not changed after this incident and is actually more aggressive towards those involved.

Of course this is my opinion, on which I am entitled to. I make my own conclusions from the information given to me. I do hope you are not given your rank back soon morgan as I think you maturity does not match the requirements of the position.

EDIT: I will be awaiting an enraged user to flame a wall of text below.

This is an apology, from the heart.

I was suggested to make an apology thread, I was not forced.

I can't travel back in time, and I can't change the past. Most of the time, an apology is all you can do.

You're always entitled to your opinion, but I completely disagree with you saying that I've been agressive to the people I've apologized to above.

Since this thread, I've had a long talk with Creamy and Tigz, Creamy who to this Day I can still call a friend, and I hope the same from him.

For Tigz, I've apologized to countless times after this thread, and I really hope at the end of every day, he can call me a friend. We all make mistakes, this, was just on a big scale. I'd like to ask all of you, to find it in yourselves, to forgive these innapropriate thing's I've done over the past few weeks.

I apologize for my attitude, the way I talked to each and every member, and the way I represented this community.

I realize an apology is not enough, hopefully in game and on teamspeak you will see that I've changed.


Again, about being agressive towards those involved, I have no idea where that has came from.

soxey6 wrote:

Personally Morgan you can make threads apologizing all day and they really wouldn't make any difference in how I feel about the situation. No its not because I hate you. Its because I have yet to see a change in the way you act. The things you are doing now are the exact same things that you did last time you were admin and the time before that. Each time you've been confronted with these problems you promise a change. But here we are once again facing more or less the same problems.

So as I said you can make threads filled with words all day long but at the end of the day what really matters is your actions. So if you truly want to apologies for what you have done, then you need to show us you have capacity to change your actions. If you can do that I can accept your apology.