Hello there.
My activity on TTT is not great, and I am gonna improve that now. The reason for this, is what I am gonna tell you now.
I have been immature, had bad attitude, and I really didn't like it. The reason is because when I was younger, I was bullied, hit, kicked, and other stuff that I won't say, and this almost led me to take my own life. But one thing made me not do it, and that is a few questions: What will happen when I am gone? Will people miss me? Will people care when I am gone? and a few more. I felt like nobody cared about me, that everybody just wanted me to leave, and just go. I almost took my own life 2 times, the first time I was very young, the second time I was a little older, and that was the time I almost did it.
I am not open about this, not many people knows this, and the reason this bothers me now, that I have had the same feeling as before. Something happend a few weeks ago that reminded me on all this, that I was alone, nobody cared, but I was wrong. Many people cared for me then I thought. If you or someone you know is dealing with this, get help, speak to someone, it helps, I didn't think it would help me, but it did.
ZARP is my life, my family. Zarp have helped me threw darkest of times, and I thank everybody for this. Even those I don't like much, I still thank you. You have made me who I am, and for that I am thankful.
And also because of that feeling, it has haunted me, made me a little unstable, I have been angry, but now I finnaly feel free of that feeling, I can improve, I can be a better person, I can do what I love the most, play games and help people at the same time. My activity and attitude is gonna be better, and I am gonna be more mature,
Again, I thank everybody for shaping this community. The staff that helps people everyday, the owners and developers who uses their time and effort to help people, make people have fun, and that is what I love about this community, that people helps others when they need it. Everybody needs someone.
Thank you if you have read the whole thing, this means a lot to me, to share who I am. Feel free to ask me questions, and things that I need to work on, and thank you for reading and hopefully understanding my terrible grammar and writing.
Thank you! <3