Okay. So, as some of you might know, I made
this post a while ago. The apology was half-assed (I was drunk at the time) and I do believe that ever since, considering the fact practically nothing bad happened to me, I almost felt "allowed" to do it again. Although I'd never be racist willingly, I have noticed that it is an impulse of mine to blurt out racist terms. And because I felt "invulnerable" I might have been more willing to say it again.
Ever since that one drunk evening I've used racist terminology around 3 or 4 times again on the Teamspeak. It is completely unnacceptable behaviour and I am truly sorry for having done it and even more sorry for not having made a post such as this one earlier.