Im going through what you are going through right now.
Due to knowing how this feels I feel like I can say my opinion even though nearly everyone will disagree with it...
Everyone who you talk to about this will let you know to keep going and killing yourself is weak, I have had it myself. I don't find it weak at all I look at people and think how bad it was for them to do that and I respect how long they went on with the problems (I included) I also hate to say this but being kind doesn't fucking matter in life, I have been nice all my life (real life not ingame) and look where it has got me... with a list of problems bigger than my shopping list wishing I had he guts to end it all. Another thing that is painful to say is very people would care
I know when I finally get to the point of doing it I will have a couple people upset and the rest like meh doesnt matter to me. Im not sure how it is for you in real life with family and friends but for me its tough and I am very very fucking lonely and it kills me. Where you say about everything good gets taken away I know how that feels too. When ever something even the slightest good happens to me someone has to take what ever it was and destroy it no matter how much it means to me and how little to them but because they can they will. People are cunts at the end of the day. You will get told the same fucking thing from everyone such as "keep going" or "it gets better" and my favorite one "suicide is for cowards and you would be a selfish person for doing so" all three of these are total bullshit. You will be convinced to keep going day in day out hiding away all your problems until you snap and do it anyway (I am the same) So im not telling you too kill yourself but I am saying I would never lose any respect or look down at you for doing so. We are all told that we will get what we want in life and we deserve the best but that isnt true, some of us are destined to fail and fall to these problems.
If you ever want to talk to someone who is at the brink of suicide with what you are facing + more feel free to message me on steam
steamcommunity.com/id/I_Ate_An_Orange_And_It_Was_K/
So there is my truthful reply but since I have to fit in I will copy everyone:
It gets better
Keep going
Think about your family and friends
Its for cowards
You would be weak to give in
That aside I honestly give you my fullest support in what ever you chose. Again if you need someone to talk to who experiences what you do every second of everyday hit me up on steam
steamcommunity.com/id/I_Ate_An_Orange_And_It_Was_K/