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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556818

So People that know me knows that I am battling with drug addiction and alcohol

to the people who don't know me
I have been using drugs and alcohol for years and these years have been really hard for me and my family and I feel really bad these days and these years I have been depressed for a while and I am wanting to kill my self I don't want to come out like a crying baby here but I just gotta share with you guys since I have been feeling down all this time and I often go to the drugs to save me from this demons and I hope you understand what I mean it's mostly to escape the world to go somewere else better while I am high but when It wears off I feel like shit and it makes me want to get high again I have used a lot of prescription drugs and I'll tell you better down below I am now currently on depression tablets who will help me get through this but I feel like I need more support

Drugs and alcohol
I have been abusing it for years now and I have been using prescription drugs for a while now and No one knows this but I have overdosed few times now and had to goto the hostpital and almost died that one time but I never seem to learn from my mistakes I feel like I don't deserve to live anymore but I try my best to keep that feeling away and now since I got accepted for staff I feel much better to be able to help payers around and stuff but I felt like sharing this with you I hope you understand

Sorry about all the troubles I have coursed while I was high and stupid.

Thanks for all the friends that have been trying to support me and I am currently seeking help with medicals and psychologists

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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556821

I hope everything goes well and that you get sober and stop taking drugs. Thank you for sharing this with us!	AceInsidious Offline Legendary Member Memed Posts: 7996 Thanks received: 3661 Karma: 394
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556834

Omg, I hope everything is gonna be okay.... Thank you for sharing this, this is very sad I hope you get better!	Wolfi Offline Legendary Member Future Owner and Manager of Murder Posts: 8738 Thanks received: 2708 Karma: 52
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556837

yo I need to speak to you about some of the shit you're on man, because from the description of what you use from what I've heard from you in private and on this it could really fuck up your life	SorIe Offline Marvelous Boarder Posts: 10833 Thanks received: 4290 Karma: 401
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556838

One time i was drugged cause i ate too much candy, are we on the same page?	catboy sven ツ Offline Adept Boarder Respected Zarp Contributor Posts: 7193 Thanks received: 1544 Karma: -45
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556839

Sorle wrote: yo I need to speak to you about some of the shit you're on man, because from the description of what you use from what I've heard from you in private and on this it could really fuck up your life I have already fucked up my life but thanks I will speak to you in private.	XxmasterxX Offline Diamond Boarder PartyKing! Posts: 3988 Thanks received: 714 Karma: -3
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556842

Hope Everything goes better <3	Luki_Guki Offline Legendary Member guy Posts: 3991 Thanks received: 1394 Karma: 45
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556843

Cut all of those prescription pills, big pharma is dirty and profit of their victims. I'd advise either staying clean or using cannabis to help.	the illest satan Offline Legendary Member Figures and numbers, all in my account. Posts: 2283 Thanks received: 632 Karma: -15
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556844

MicrosoftAccess wrote: Cut all of those prescription pills, big pharma is dirty and profit of their victims. I'd advise either staying clean or using cannabis to help. I smoke weed I just feel like I need something stronger.	XxmasterxX Offline Diamond Boarder PartyKing! Posts: 3988 Thanks received: 714 Karma: -3
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556848

I hope you get better.	Klam Offline Banned 801 Posts: 1576 Thanks received: 247 Karma: 3
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556862

XxmasterxX wrote: MicrosoftAccess wrote: Cut all of those prescription pills, big pharma is dirty and profit of their victims. I'd advise either staying clean or using cannabis to help. I smoke weed I just feel like I need something stronger. Try extracts or just smoke more, or take breaks so your tolerance drops.	the illest satan Offline Legendary Member Figures and numbers, all in my account. Posts: 2283 Thanks received: 632 Karma: -15
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556863

Honestly, I knew you did drugs from you rolling some weed on camera, but I didn't know you would go this far. Hope all goes well and you stop or decrease it to a minimal level to the point it doesn't destroy you from the inside and give you depression.	MichaeI Offline Mythical Boarder CBR500R Posts: 5164 Thanks received: 1063 Karma: -7
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556865

I don't know you but I totally get what you mean with the demons and stuff - I have fairly recently taken a huge turn for the better myself and I hope that you manage to make that same turn <3	cJazz Offline Senior Boarder fanatic egalitarian Posts: 315 Thanks received: 148 Karma: 6
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556890

The first step is accepting you've got problems, the second one is finding help. Luckily you've done both, and from what I can tell you're a great guy. You'll beat it, I know it!	BremFM Offline Senior Boarder Posts: 573 Thanks received: 93 Karma: -9
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556891

vape	Gody Offline Mythical Boarder Posts: 5954 Thanks received: 1058 Karma: -117
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556917

Keep fighting it man!	Jordz Offline Marvelous Boarder More Scottish than Aidan himself Posts: 10795 Thanks received: 2237 Karma: 129
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556935

i completely understand you my dude,i recently was in a state of mind where whenever i was feeling down i felt the need to get high on something,just stay away from any kind of drugs,even cigarettes and it will get better with time	Muhammed Ali Offline Gold Boarder fuck Posts: 1977 Thanks received: 780 Karma: 24
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556941

Oh my.. I hope your ok man! Be strong, its not a bad life just a bad period in your life. Hope your family is there for you	SyStem Offline Legendary Member The Specialist Posts: 3564 Thanks received: 982 Karma: 53
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #556987

Thanks for all the support guys! I am going to be lowering all use of prescription drugs	XxmasterxX Offline Diamond Boarder PartyKing! Posts: 3988 Thanks received: 714 Karma: -3
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My Problems and confession 6 years 11 months ago #557005

rip hope you get better soon, keep safe	Tadgee Offline Banned Posts: 2326 Thanks received: 480 Karma: 3
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