Hello there.
I want to apologize to everyone that suffered due to me minging on server 2 yesterday + an explanation. I am aware of it not being the right thing to do, and I take fully responsibility for my actions. I was a bit upset due to me not being accepted as moderator. During the time I was on server 2 after the DarkRP meeting started, I made 4-5 f1s about rule breakers, but it was no help to get. This annoyed me and I kept thinking, “If I was a moderator, I would’ve at least done some F1s instead of just RP’ing.” Then after a while, I PM all of the online staff members, asking if they could handle my F1. No response (I saw them moving around ig.)
Then I think, stupid me, that if I do something, so a dude would make an f1 about me minging, I could get in contact with a staff member. (I was on teamspeak and tried to get in touch with SA’s there, due to me meaning that I was false denied on my application for Moderator, but that is another case and has been sorted.) I then keybind the following phrase: “Mug drop 1k now. 2 seconds.” I walk up to a dude and use it. 1.. 2.. Boom. Dead. I do this to the same person again. Now, I thought, now he must have made an f1. However, after 5 minutes I guessed not. So I walk around, thinking of another way to get in touch with staff member. (Note; I was looking for staff member whilst running around on the map, but could never see any of them.) Then I meet the guy I mugged earlier. He then shouts to me “Minging whore”. Then he RDMs me. That is where I lost it.
For me, the word whore/hooker affects me much. My sister was a hooker. One day when she was doing her job, she was killed. Each time I hear “whore” or “hooker”, I cannot help it. I feel the anger boil in me, and I feel that I need someone to blame (the case was never sorted).
So, I am furious. I try to find the person I mugged, so I could blame him. For making me so angry. I go to him, but he starts shooting at me, so I try to defend myself by equipping my own weapon. I kill him. I am so furious now, that I did not care about anything. I went to his friend. Keybind, 1 2, dead.
Then two guys have their car stuck, so I say I am going to help them. I spawn in a small prop, and push their car onto the road. They say Thanks, then the same dude comes back, and RDM’s me. I am getting more and more furious, and I forget about what I have been fighting against for so long. Rulebreakers.
During all of this, the person kept demoting me from all the jobs I chose. This made me even angrier, so I was a citizen, equipped my weapon, M24 (?), and went to kill him. Then I got tped by Brother Jack. He started talking about what rules I broke (I think, I was breathing so loud, that I could not hear it fully). I then was going to say to him, after he was done with that f1, if He could do mine. (I made one when the dude called me a “minging whore.”) But, I didn’t get so far, because the guy (RDM’er) said. “You fucking minging whore, you cannot mug for 2 secs.” ‘Whore.’ I equipped a weapon, and shot him, I then got physgrabbed by Jack. I then said: “Didn’t you hear what he just called me!?” I am not even sure if he heard what I said there, cause I got no response he just said that I confessed to Mass RDM, Big gun as Cit, and another rule breaking. I am not sure what he meant with that, but I was so furious. He was then typing in the bans. I then say, for no reason, “you type so slow, ban me already.” (Something like that). Then, Banned.
So, over to the main point of this post:
EVERYONE WHO LOST SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL, TAKE CONTACT WITH ME WHEN MY BAN IS OVER, AND I WILL REFUND!
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