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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774598

Sorry

First, let me start by saying this isn't me asking for sympathy because I know I fucked up, What I did was unacceptable and I'm not expecting you to forgive me.
There are multiple reasons behind me doing what I did, I will list the reasons below if you care to read it:
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But As an admin on Zarp, i feel like I had trust from most of the players which I loved. But I took it for granted and used my powers to ruin other peoples RP experience, which is something I hate myself. I feel like a complete piece of shit, And honestly, I hope you feel like I am too. I don't want forgiveness for what I did but I want people to accept that I fucked up and understand my reasoning.

The main thing that pushed me over the edge was in the SSRP meeting I said something about someone close to me in my family and someone else (I'm not sure who) joked about it and took the piss. I don't want to break NDA so I can't say much on here. But that was the main thing that pushed me over the edge after being combined with all the points above, And Yachty was talking to me at the time, and saying I need to take a break from zarp and stuff like that, so I lent him my ACS so he could do what he had to. I did not TP the whole server but I did work with him to M202 them all after he TPd them. I do regret what I did but I can't take it back. I'm planning on making an unban appeal, But I don't expect it to get accepted. I don't miss zarp... I miss the community around it.


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I did have a sig but I'm kinda banned on SSRP so all my SSRP sigs are irrelevant now Egss deeeeeee.
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774609

It's debatable, even with the reasons you've given, if you should be accepted back in the community, but what's for sure is that nobody should trust you either way, nor should you be given any position of power.
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774612

pology accepted I kinda understand but also not your desisions that you made
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774613

You say that you did this because of mental health, being bored, and exams. Yet, I recall you saying you have been planning this for awhile now with yachty meaning it was premeditated.


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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774614

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774616

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774617

dankek wrote:
It's debatable, even with the reasons you've given, if you should be accepted back in the community, but what's for sure is that nobody should trust you either way, nor should you be given any position of power.

I would never expect to get any position of power again, I abused my privileges so they should be permanently removed. And I don't expect people to trust me, I never backstabbed any bases I never raided friend. The people who trust me can trust me the people who don't, don't. I accept their opinion.
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I did have a sig but I'm kinda banned on SSRP so all my SSRP sigs are irrelevant now Egss deeeeeee.
Also If you want your name in my shoutouts steam msg me <3

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774618

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Yeah cool buddy I mean, what you did was like really wrong, you ripped a lot of peoples shit i think so uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I appreciate it and all but cool gl
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774620

Spicy wrote:
You say that you did this because of mental health, being bored, and exams. Yet, I recall you saying you have been planning this for awhile now with yachty meaning it was premeditated.

I wasnt the one who said that yachty was, He sprung the idea on me and i went with it


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I did have a sig but I'm kinda banned on SSRP so all my SSRP sigs are irrelevant now Egss deeeeeee.
Also If you want your name in my shoutouts steam msg me <3

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774626

AceInsidious wrote:
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I did have a sig but I'm kinda banned on SSRP so all my SSRP sigs are irrelevant now Egss deeeeeee.
Also If you want your name in my shoutouts steam msg me <3

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774628

does this mean i have to give your items back that i bought off you for paypal money?
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774629

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Yeah cool buddy I mean, what you did was like really wrong, you ripped a lot of peoples shit i think so uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I appreciate it and all but cool gl

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774630

KapiJam wrote:
does this mean i have to give your items back that i bought off you for paypal money?

Yea ill also refund your £40
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I did have a sig but I'm kinda banned on SSRP so all my SSRP sigs are irrelevant now Egss deeeeeee.
Also If you want your name in my shoutouts steam msg me <3

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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774631

You were boasting about it after you did it for like 4 days straight on the forums
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774632

Seems bullshit for me
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774633

AceInsidious wrote: piss off you shitshow
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774636

If someone was bullying you for your mental health, why didn't you report it to anyone during the meeting? Your actions justified nothing and look what you got yourself into.
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774637

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You were boasting about it after you did it for like 4 days straight on the forums

NGL it was quite hyped up at the time and I didn't want to seem like I regretted it so I played it off like it was all a joke. But I do accept the consequences of what I did.
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Sorry 6 months 1 week ago #774640

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If someone was bullying you for your mental health, why didn't you report it to anyone during the meeting? Your actions justified nothing and look what you got yourself into.

If you want to discuss the reasoning behind me not reporting it don't fancy having a conversation on the forums, I will happily talk in steam or TS if you want. But i did fuck up and i did react badly.
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I did have a sig but I'm kinda banned on SSRP so all my SSRP sigs are irrelevant now Egss deeeeeee.
Also If you want your name in my shoutouts steam msg me <3

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