TOPIC: Apology and a possible break

So, I'm going to start off by saying that today, I made a mistake. This is a mistake that I am frankly disgusted by, and other too.
On SSRP, I abused my powers in multiple ways in an attempt to raid a user.
Now, I could have raided the poor user without using my powers at all, by not breaking NLR and by not breaking raid timer or the countless other things that I did, but for some bloody stupid reason I decided to use my powers for it.

I'm not making this as a "oh please I want to stay as staff" or anything, I am saying this so people know what I have done, so that people know not to trust me and so that people know that I too hate myself for my behavior. People trusted me. I took that trust and I completely shattered and trampled it.

Following this, I may decide to take a break on all servers so that I can think about what has happened and why it happened so that I don't end up doing this on any other servers or in the future. I will not be on for at least a few hours to think over this, and I will decide whether or not I will take a break, but the chances are that I will.

EDIT:
This is everything I did:
Rules:
Mass NLR
Mass Raidtimer
Harrasment of a user

Powers:
Using admin powers to remove props that should not be removed
Mass no clip abuse , Scanning out the base to find weakpoints. Noclipping back to the base. Noclipping around to gain advantage to get to places where it is more difficult to get without noclip.
God mode. Using god mode to raid

Videos:

Rules you broke:
Mass NLR
Mass Raidtimer
Harrasment of a user

Powers you abused:
Using your admin powers to remove props that should not be removed
Mass no clip abuse , Scanning out the base to find weakpoints. Noclipping back tot he base. Nocliping around to gain advantage to get to places where it is more difficult to get without noclip.
God mode. Using god mode to raid

Disappointed, hope to never see this again if you don't get fully demoted.

ParaMontana wrote:
Please tell me he was demoted or given another severe punishment instead of just being told to 'not do it again'.

POWER HUNGRY

Of course I was given an emergency demote for this, if I hadn't, I would tell the Lead Team that they should have done and made this as a resignation post.

Frankly, I should also be banned for mass rulebreak.

and all of this cuz some non vip printers ?

TheXnator wrote:

Why would you do such a stupid thing ? why !

Atleast you cloaked when you no clipped

Jenga, the "Demoter" Pretty dissapointed to be honest, suspected more out of an admin trying to apply for S.A

... I'm disgusted and the fact that you applied for SA on ssrp and ttt as well.

Just woke up and saw this. Did not expected this from you at all

Hope you get demoted on all servers! Clearly shows you cannot be trusted with any powers.

Good job jenga.

I was not expecting too see this.. Shame on you..

I'm realy disapoined in you Xnator. I actually believed you would get SA. I told you you deserve it. Im realy disapointed.

I mean damn, you're still shit at killing people while abusing your powers. Seriously though I'm so disappointed, you and your MC server can go fuck off elsewhere because you've simply lost all trust.

Clarky wrote:
Oh shit he got roasted!

I liked you Xnator but this is a deal breaker :/

What i am disapointed in is the fact you did not come to me first the moment you did that i was hoping you would directly message me or another lead team member and cough up what you did . instead of us having to come to you because you know its to late when we have to come to you