This is a serious topic so people not willing to take it seriously, fuck off.
There are a select few of my friends in this community (you know who you are) who i have spoken to beforehand and told you about this but for the past 6 months i have had depression. I first
resigned from deathrun For about the first 3 months i could handle it i told absolutely no one but after the initial three months i really felt it so i went and got a diagnosis and told my close friends at school, at that time I
resigned from surf as a last resort to get more time to think about things. I spoke to chummy and nafe_ about it then and they helped me tons that it almost became bearable. Thank you two. I thought it would be fine from then but it just became worse and worse i lost my hearing and got very very sad at this point i am cutting my self every day, hardly sleep and i lost a lot of friends at school, it was and still is a very low point in life for me. today my friends at school pretty much forced me to go talk the the therapist at school about what i hear and what the voice says and stuff along the lines of that and apparently it is either schizophrenia or psychosis for them to come to a conclusion i need to be asked more questions so when i have a diagnosis i will let you all know.
Today I am very close to ending it all and just killing myself my friends have been very supportive thank you all.
Thanks to.
Micky
Sada
Chummy
Nafe_
Bazeraxe
Error
Gim
Boss
Alex3k
Rob
Lewis?
I (hopefully) will stay lurking on the forums posting every now and then. I just think dedicating myself to a server at a time like this is pointless.
80% of this probably makes no sense but im posting this anyway i don't have the energy to fix it