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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782183

This is a serious topic so people not willing to take it seriously, fuck off.


There are a select few of my friends in this community (you know who you are) who i have spoken to beforehand and told you about this but for the past 6 months i have had depression. I first resigned from deathrun For about the first 3 months i could handle it i told absolutely no one but after the initial three months i really felt it so i went and got a diagnosis and told my close friends at school, at that time I resigned from surf as a last resort to get more time to think about things. I spoke to chummy and nafe_ about it then and they helped me tons that it almost became bearable. Thank you two. I thought it would be fine from then but it just became worse and worse i lost my hearing and got very very sad at this point i am cutting my self every day, hardly sleep and i lost a lot of friends at school, it was and still is a very low point in life for me. today my friends at school pretty much forced me to go talk the the therapist at school about what i hear and what the voice says and stuff along the lines of that and apparently it is either schizophrenia or psychosis for them to come to a conclusion i need to be asked more questions so when i have a diagnosis i will let you all know.
Today I am very close to ending it all and just killing myself my friends have been very supportive thank you all.

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I (hopefully) will stay lurking on the forums posting every now and then. I just think dedicating myself to a server at a time like this is pointless.

80% of this probably makes no sense but im posting this anyway i don't have the energy to fix it
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782194

thanks for your work bro, take care!
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782201

Thanks for your hard work mage, you can always talk to me if you need to, hope shit gets better soon.

You spelt my name wrong and put me before my brother.....
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782204

Sad to hear this man, you can message me anytime and you better stay lurking g!
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782206

I feel you bro, around 4 months ago I was in a similar position to you and what worked for me was i was told to just see past it, do what you enjoy. I dont know if this helps but it did for me, if you ever want to talk add me on steam :)
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782214

You got me if you need me fam
I'll miss you on deathrun alot
I remember we got mod and admin together, and Nathan (you know who xxd) found it "funny"
Take care fam
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782220

why do i have a question mark next to my name?
im gr8
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782221

Omg! will miss the nice time with you! take care and Good luck with your future :(
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782227

Sad to see you go
Hopefully everything gets fixed
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782253

BYE BYE GET WELL SOON BUDDY
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782256

RIP Qwerty, shame to see you go mate.
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782269

Ashur wrote:
BYEBYE SALTY FUCKER!!!!
get ur salt out of here ffs
his life is hard enough
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782448

Bazaraxe wrote:
Thanks for your hard work mage, you can always talk to me if you need to, hope shit gets better soon.

You spelt my name wrong and put me before my brother.....
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782507

Message me anytime man, always around

You're a great friend and guy, Shame ur leaving, keep posting though
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782543

there goes another great staff member, sad to see what is happening to you. If you ever need me hit me up on steam
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782588

Thanks for your hard work. You were a great staff member!
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782689

I know I'm not around much anymore and am often off on steam, but I'm still reachable and am always willing to chat when I'm not at work. If I can help in anyway let me know, bud. Best of luck in all that you go on to do.
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #782822

I went to a therapist and they said that it is psychosis.
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #786618

I am revoking but am taking a couple of weeks break.
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Deathrun resignation and explanation why. 6 years 3 months ago #786643

Don't worry bro, take the break, spend time with family and friends and let people know; take care of yourself.
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