TOPIC: [Deathrun Head Admin] Scum's Application

Hi there! Please take your time to read my application, or skip right through! Any kind of feedback would be of great use to me.
Also, please excuse the bad writing and/or grammar. It may seem a bit rushed but I did the majority of this when I was tired.

Steam Name:

Scum

Time Zone:

GMT + 1:00

Link to Steam Profile:

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What server are you applying for?

Deathrun

SteamID

STEAM_0:0:143461741

Current Gametracker Profiles:

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Estimated Server Time:

275-300 hours

Languages I speak:

Italian, English and 2 words in Welsh

My Experience:

Since I applied back in 2015 and gave up, I came back in 2017 and have learnt a lot of things from when I started my journey here at ZARP. I have grown to overcome/solve problems/situations that I could not have faced as a moderator or administrator and have gained understanding of many, many things that have helped me on my walk to higher ranks. I believe that my knowledge of the rules is sufficent enough for this position along with my past experiences with other communities (they have died off by now) and my time here.

If I was to become a Head administrator, what would I do?:

I would carry on as if nothing happened. Except the fact that I would gain more responsibiltity and have to take more actions which in my eyes helps me personally as a person to develop and learn to deal with future "inconviences". Cutting what I want to really say short, lets just say this: I like to help people for my benefit and theirs. More drastic actions would have to be taken as I would no longer be a SA, but a HA, therefore I passively help the server (passively meaning doing my job normally). I am also learning coding slowly and could be of use when it comes to GLua, fixing bugs, making maps, etc. No guarantee though, as I'm not sure if I would be interested enough in that part of things.

What about that activity of yours?

I have just gotten off my two week break after I resigned due to some hardships with my family and I feel a lot better now. My activity is not the best, but the holidays are coming up and for sure I am going to be active during those times. School is no longer much of an issue, but I will still have to take into account that it's there, and it will burden my capabilities of what I can do as a HA on the server. Even after the Winter holiday, I will try my best to uphold my activity so it doesn't look like two hours every week, but instead ten hours or more. No guarantees though, anything could happen.

Why should we choose you then? Why do you want to be a Head Administrator?

After being harassed by a person (not stating their name) every time I got on TS asking me to become HA, I started to think about it. I could get more influence, power, the ability to help more you could say. I don't have any good particular reason of why I want to be a HA, but it helps in general, for me and others (I have spoken about my experience already so I won't copy-paste it here). I believe that my ability as a HA could greatly improve the server in many points...
But, isn't that what any other staff would do? An administrator, moderator and SA can all help the server, can't they?
That is true. But as a HA, I will unlock not just physical abilities (powers), but also gain a higher sense of confidence which would help me in many areas. Other staff would start to look up to you for help, and that gives me a warm feeling inside. It's still quite uncommon as a SA for someone to ask you for help, so for that reason alone is enough to make me want to go for HA. Of course there are more reasons, such as intimidation which can be used in a good way and being able to slap Sarah (not Annie, shes too scary for me). This is only part of why I want to be an HA, but I can't really express my self in words. I just find it difficult sometimes.

What do you do on the server? How do you act?

I would never attempt to create any kind of bad atmosphere in the server, making everyone tense and uneasy. That is the complete opposite of what a staff's goal is. I strive to be helpful and interactful with all members of the server, whilst avoiding grudges against people that would only get in my way and ruin who I am as a person. I generally tend to relax on the server, always watching to see what's happening, unless I am doing something else (for example, constantly checking the forums due to an event or someone needs help in Ts, etc.). I try to be as enthuisatic as possible, but at times I can be dull. Sometimes I don't talk at all, which is something that I don't wan't to happen and I try to avoid it as much as possible. I try to always have a light mood in the server, otherwise it's more like a burden instead of an enjoyable experience of helping players and feeling helpful.

Trust

Trust for me is a very important thing, as I have been backstabbed multiple times. I have not told anyone this, but now you can see it on my application. I think atleast, that to an extent I am trusted within the community, as I don't want to be malicious in any way. I have never abused my powers (with the exception of the slap tournaments Alex vs Scum vs JJ)
and never intend to.

I don't want to make this application a paragraph, so I'll end it here. (to me it looks like I just wrote a bunch of unneccecary sentences and this was a complete waste of my time )
I have only finished my two week break and have mostly made this to practice and for feedback.
If you have any questions, just add me on Steam! Link is at the top of the app.

If you read everything, thank you!