I feel like you're making these posts so you get some attention because at the moment you're needy (I just read this entire sentence and notice it can be seen as mean, but I really am writing it in a good way, bear with me), so I would advise you to take a break from Zarp, might even just be a couple days and then consider what you want to do, don't make decisions with a hot head because I believe it will be worst to take them back in a few days. (or create a poll weeks after trying to get it back *cough* Clarky *cough*).
Really hope your next cat grows up healthy and without any problems.
Good luck, whcih ever the decision you make.